dm me? || namjin⚡

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in the last week, seokjin had been doing a lot of thinking to himself.

the couple had been dating for four months, and jin knew they'd moved incredibly fast, especially if you considered the fact that their relationship began, and remained for a month, online. they hadn't experienced very much of each other, and jin could recognise that one of namjoon's biggest flaws was his idealistic, sometimes delusional perception of love. it was so endearing, but it was also dangerous. he fell way too hard, way to fast, and way to permanently. for jin to be admitting this almost felt treacherous, as if he were betraying namjoon by exposing him so vulnerably to his faults, but he also knew that this was necessary for them to develop. from his own experience, he knew the importance of a crystal clear vision of each other. it could be a make or break for them.

how did he know this? seokjin had only had one previous romantic encounter, a relationship that lasted five months in year nine. maybe one day, he thought, he'd be able to tell namjoon about it. but minjung had ruined seokjin, corrupted him, and where namjoon was lucky to have such a utopian outlook on love, seokjin's own perspective had been made cutting, cold, bleak. he was a pessimist. and namjoon's big proposal had frightened him, shocked the monsters of his past out of his core, as if on perfect time to ruin their relationship.

anyway.

these days, he couldn't seem to escape his suffocating thoughts. he knew he loved namjoon, he trusted him, and he was vulnerable to him, and he knew that namjoon loved jimin as if his own. in so many ways, namjoon made seokjin a better person than he was, a better brother, a better friend, a better citizen. he boosted his ambitions, and gave him the means to follow his dreams. but moving in was a huge step. and it felt as if there were a million things that jin had yet to uncover about namjoon. sure, he knew some of his flaws, but there was no way anyone could be a simplistically intricate, so perfectly imperfect, and so goddamn easy as namjoon. maybe jin was self-sabotaging in his lack of faith. but he didn't know any other way.

concluding it all he came to a realisation, that of two things was he absolutely certain. one, that he would sacrifice everything, including his life, for jimin. two, that he was absolutely irrevocably in love with namjoon.

and so, to google did he turn, realising with a sense of catharsis that their relationship did tick most of the boxes - they had spent weeks at a time with each other, and they knew about each other's families, and each other's pasts. there was, however, something that stuck in seokjin's brain, grappling at the back of his head.

"have you had a proper argument yet?"

the words haunted him. he thought about them all the time. it wasn't as if they hadn't even argued - they bickered often, and on the night that jimin's world fell apart at his feet, jin knew he'd given namjoon hell, swearing awful things at him and telling him he couldn't understand their lives. he couldn't have been more wrong. namjoon was the most empathetic, understanding and most willing to adapt man he'd ever met. he respected their boundaries, but pushed jin when he knew he needed to. it was sometimes, scarily, as if namjoon were the puzzle piece that had been missing their entire lives.

seokjin knew a third thing, too, now. and he knew that it wasn't as pretty as the declarations he'd made earlier.

seokjin knew he'd have to initiate an argument.

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sorry this is so short i promise i'll try to write longer chapters when i can <3 thank u for reading!!