Darling [h.s]

4

Song For This Chapter

Bad Intentions- Niykee Heaton

"I got some damn bad intentions

I got some secrets I forgot to mention

Haven't learned my lesson"

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I can't believe it but I re downloaded Tinder. Why? I'm still asking myself that too. But I've been extremely frustrated recently and I'm just looking for a hook-up. Someone I'll never have to see again. But after two days of swiping left on almost every guy, I'm about to give up.

Maya also already yelled at me for getting Tinder again when she said I could solve all my problems with just hooking up with Harry. But if I wanted to hook up with him I would've. Well that's a lie, but that smirky asshole is the reason I'm having these problems.

He got into my head and now I can't get him out. I swear he's so frustrating, he's like a damn virus. But that's why I want to find someone to relieve the frustration that he caused, stupid british asshole.

If it wasn't summer right now, this would be a lot easier. I would just find a random frat boy at a party and called it a night. But that currently isn't an option and I'm going to lose it. I didn't even realize how long it had been until Harry asked me.

Harry Harry Harry, I swear to god that's the only thing my mind thinks about on repeat and it's going to drive me mad. He has set up home in my mind uninvited and I can't get him out. It doesn't help that even sleeping my mind betrays me with dreams of him. Not cute dreams, completely dirty hot ass dreams that make my sexual frustration sky rocket.

This isn't fair, I didn't ask for this but I can't say I don't enjoy it entirely. But I now don't think I can trust myself around him. I'm weak, vulnerable, and way too god damn sexually frustrated to be around him. My rational mind says no, but everything else in my body is screaming for me to jump his bones.

So as usual, I'm avoiding Harry at all costs. This is something I am very good at and very familiar with but Harry has made that extremely difficult. He's been showing up to work randomly when he's not scheduled to use the showers in the locker room because apparently his water got shut off. Just my luck.

I've done a decent job at avoiding him though except for when he scared the shit out of me when I was closing alone and he was in the locker room. I must have not seen him come in but I went to go lock up and he was standing there in a towel soaking wet. I literally screamed, and scared the shit out of him as well.

But thankfully, Maya and I finally got scheduled together for tonight. It's a Friday night so it could be a bit busier than normal but I'm just glad we get to work a shift together.

Walking into work I'm actually not dreading this shift. I usually dread any shift even if i'm working with Niall. Nothing against Niall of course I just don't get how anyone would look forward to working. I'd much rather be at home watching TV or something.

I know that Niall most likely worked the morning shift with Macie, another girl who works here. I haven't talked to her much, she started working here just last month. My thoughts are confirmed when I walk in the pool area to see Niall and Macie standing together chatting.

Now that I know that Maya likes Niall, I feel a pang of panic seeing him talk to Macie. But I just remind myself that Niall is just a friendly person and most likely is just having casual conversations with a coworker. I haven't found an opportunity to try and get info out of Niall on who he might like but I need to get on that soon. Maybe I'll call him later tonight after I leave work.