Can't Be Without You ~ Zelink BotW

Loneliness

~*Link's point of view*~

     I rode my brown steed across Hyrule's field in the hopes to put my mind at ease. Negative thoughts kept filling my head, as partial memories nagged at my brain to be fully recalled. I was trying so hard to fully remember, using all my strength and might to do so. But, it was beginning to make head ache with exhaustion because of it.

     Most of my stress stems from trying to remember my past. I wish to remember my father, my mother, my childhood... No matter how hard I seem to try, there's just never a good result in the end. I feel so incomplete... Everyone around me always seems to speak of their past. The things they used to do when they were young, and all the trials, and things they had to go through to get them where they were now. I feel like I've just appeared into a teenage body, unable to determine anything when I was little. 

     I had to find out I was a swordsman by picking up a sword. How it rested so comfortably in my grasp. I remember looking at the blade, feeling a deep connection to it, not quite in the understanding of why. I swung it in the air a few times, shocking myself at my already born skill. To know I loved food, I had to bite into an apple, savoring it's taste on my tongue, and the way it sustained me, and comforted my stomach. 

     I live my life now, figuring out strange things I am good at and enjoy by randomly doing it. Feeling the deep connections, but not remembering the hard work and training I had put into it, and how it had become so special.

     I just want to know. To remember my own self. It makes me feel so alone to know I am the only one struggling with this. There's no one I can relate to, so, I have to bare these burdens on my own. The only one I felt understood me the most out of anyone was- Zelda... She knows more about me then I do my own self. She would sometimes tell me some stories I had told her before the strike of the Calamity, to help me get a glimpse of who I used to be. 

And now that help is gone...

     I quickly wiped at the tears that welled within my eyes, as I gave my horse another whip to start a gallop. Instead of thinking on the pain, I paid my attention to the scenery that flashed by me. Pulling on my horse's reins to help steer it from the approaching obstacles in our path. The wind felt so freeing, as it blew fiercely into my face, drying my tears, and removing the hairs from my face to whip behind me. I sucked in the fresh smell of the trees and grass into my lungs to help calm myself. Nothing could ever be more healing to me then nature itself. It's beauty is remarkable, and the way everything goes on to survive is outstanding! It's sights are enough to take anyone's breath away, and give you the ability to feel free, even though you are trapped.

     I began to slow as my destination began to near. My gallop turned into a slow trot, so I hopped off onto the ground to pull my horse alongside me by it's reins. We walked along the grassy fields, as the sun began to hide in the distance. I found a near by tree to tie my horse to, and gave him a friendly pat on the nose. He gave me a begging nudge, so I pulled out one of the many apple's I had kept in my pocket, and offered it to him. He ate at it contently, so I turned to walk a little deeper into the field.

     The tall blades began to consume my legs, as I trudged on besides the fact. Finally, I found the spot I had cut the grass to sit on and gaze at the view with Zelda. Little new sprouts already had become over an inch long since then. I let out a weary sigh, as I situated myself to sit down on the earth. I stared at the glorious sight, but it didn't seem as magnificent as it was before. Everything seems so bland and dull without her here... I thought, grazing my fingers along the green life surrounding me. It has only been four days without her here, yet, I have already began to feel an emptiness in my heart. I've already been feeling like I don't belong, and have been struggling to find my place in this world. She seemed to be the only thing that distracted me from those feelings.

     I remember wanting to scream out to her, and beg her not to leave. To change anything I could to make her stay here with me. But, I remained quiet like I usually did. If her leaving is what she has to do to help her cope with her ill memories, I don't want to keep her from healing. I just hope soon, that I can also find my escape. Even if it means without her with me for support. I will put on a brave face for her, and for myself.

~*Credit for the artist: Unknown... :( If you happen to know the artist, please let me know so I can credit them properly!*~