The Babysitting Job- Loki x Reader story

Chapter 17

Y/n's POV:

Time. All I need is time to find him and fix this. What did I do? I have done nothing wrong. This isn't my fault.

I walk over to Jo.
"Do you know where Loki is?" A look of recognition and then fear sweeps over her face.

"What? What is it that you aren't telling me?" I back away.
"Y/n I'm so sorry. He told me he was going to leave and that he would be back later I didn't see the harm-"
"God dammit Jo! Do you realize what you've done? The Avengers are gonna kill me!" I say angrily, clenching my fists.

"I'm sorry! I didn't know that he wasn't supposed to leave!"
My fists unclench. God, how stupid can one be? But, she didn't know any better.

"It's ok. Hey it's fine. Just, please stay here and don't get into this. You don't know what you're getting into." She sits on the couch in a daze.
I run around the house, as if he is simply hiding somewhere.

After not finding him anywhere, my worry and anxiety turns into anger. Where the hell is he? I have done nothing wrong. I thought we were getting closer, but this makes me not want to go down what ever path is with him. He cant just leave like that! Whatever we had before this, I don't want anymore. The slight spark is diminished.

I close my eyes, searching for him like I seem to always be doing. I can't find him anywhere. What? I can always find him, no matter where he is. So why can't I now? Because I can't find him, there is only one thing I can do.

"Y/n? Is everything alright?" Steve answers.
"Steve, Loki's gone. I can't find him anywhere."
He goes silent.

"So you haven't found him anywhere?"
"No that's what I just said" I say frustrated.
He gives the phone to Thor. I tell him the same thing and he goes completely silent. Thor gives the phone to Tony.

"Did you leave him alone?" He asks.
"Only for a little bit but I locked the door so he couldn't leave." I say guilty. He sighs.

"Ok. I need you to keep on looking. We're trying to get back as soon as we can, just tell me if you find him."
He is no help. He hangs up to contact other people on Earth to maybe find Loki. I feel so mad, yet worried as well.

Worried that something is going to happen to me, but also, as mad as it makes me, that he might not be okay. Why do I still care? He left for Christ's sake! I slam my phone down and go out on my balcony.

The breeze blows my hair back. I close my eyes. All I feel is static, like I'm flipping through TV channels but they aren't coming through correctly. I see a slight spark. Finally. I see him walking around a large city, but he's disguised as a cop.

I open a portal to get to him. The portal is, black? There's nothing in the portal. Why the hell can't I reach him? I run my fingers through my hair. My phone rings again. Its Nick Fury.

"You have screwed up big time now L/n" he seems pissed.
"Oh spare me the lecture please. What have you to report?" Everyone was stunned at how I talk to Nick at the beginning, but I just see him as anyone else and not some big bad guy. He doesn't scare me.

"We haven't found him yet. We're trying everything and are still looking."
"Do you know if he's left Earth?" I ask.
"Knowing that bastard, maybe. He would most likely want to get away as far as he can." My stomach drops. I didn't even think that he would leave Earth.

Fury doesn't talk for long which I am grateful for. He says to try and stay calm and if I can't find him then to wait for further instructions. This is all my fault. I shouldn't have been so at ease with him. I shouldn't have let him break down my walls so quickly.

But all of the shouldn't haves wont find him any faster. I do as Fury told me to but I still can't find him. I can't stay calm. Is there something wrong with me? I try to find someone else in my mind and find them immediately. It isn't me then. He is hiding. But why?

I begin to pick at my fingernails. With Wanda not here to stop me, my thumb begins to bleed. Jo insists that I sit, but I can't. The everlasting guilt that I'm putting upon myself is too strong for me to sit still. I always have put too much pressure on myself, and this is just another burden to weigh me down. What are the Avengers going to think? That I can't even handle babysitting? I start to tremble.

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Hours go by, but no one contacts me. It's late afternoon when I get the call that the team aren't getting back today. I didn't expect them to be back today anyways. Tony says that Fury is looking everywhere for him, and that he would handle this when he gets back. Jo forces me to eat but I barely take it down. I'm always trying to be strong, and I don't like the idea that he's making me feel this way. When he comes back, I will kill him.

The minutes turn into more hours and it's getting late. Jo left to stay at a friends house because I needed some alone time.

Getting off of the couch, I stand and stretch. I walk into my room to change. I pull on sweatpants and take off my shirt. I stand in the mirror and look at my healing cut. It's starting to heal but still looks bad. I run my fingers through my hair, breathing in the comforting scent of my room. I hear a cough behind me.

There he is.
"Loki?"

He appears at my nightstand.
"What the fuck." I have so much to say to him. Why does he look so cocky? Like hes a child that just got away with stealing candy?

I run over to him and slap him hard in the face.
"What we're you thinking? I was so worried! I thought you had left for good what the hell? Why? What did you leave for?" I yell at him until my voice is raw. He doesn't say anything.

I push him hard and his back hits the wall. His face is expressionless. I push him and hit him in the chest, tears running down my face. I'm not sure if they are tears of relief or anger or a mixture.
"Fight back god dammit! Say something! Fight back!" I'm filled with pure hatred.

Loki's POV:

     I'm filled with guilt. It was stupid for me to leave. Y/n pushes me up against the wall. She looks so mad but relieved at the same time, like she cant decide how to feel.

She is only wearing a bra and sweatpants. Her eyes are dark with rage.
"Fight back!" She screams at me, tears going down her beautiful face.
And that's when my hands cant help but pull her in so close, so vulnerable and it all happens at once.

My lips upon yours which feels like electricity.
Your back against the wall where mine was moments ago.
My heart desperate for your touch as it betrays everything within me.
And in that moment, I hate you. I hate you so much. Because this is who you've made me become.

But darling, you're just so completely and utterly irresistible.
And, though reckless, this is how I have come to fight back.