The Babysitting Job- Loki x Reader story

Chapter 35

QUICK TRIGGER WARNING FOR PANIC ATTACKS
Thor's POV:

I went to Asgard that day. I had missed that place a lot. I didn't sightsee for long and went straight to the prison. I longed for a beer when I saw how my brother was doing.

He looked terrible, like he hadn't slept in days. His hair was a mess and he had a book thrown across the room. I walked into the cell and picked up the book. The Great Gatsby.
"I thought you didn't like fiction?"
"I don't." He said grimly. I set the book on his bed and sat down. I wish I had y/n's powers to bring me a keg of beer.
"So how are you?" I asked. He looked at me and laughed darkly.
"You're funny brother."
"Do you want to know how y/n is doing?" He immediately looked up with interest, but then shook his head and looked down.
"Well, she was really sad the first two weeks and didn't sleep much. She said she felt guilty and bad about everything but was also angry. She became more angry and is trying to move on." He avoided looking at me and looked uncomfortable.
"I'm doing what's best for her," he said unconvincing. I furrowed my eyebrows and scrunched my face.
"Are you?" He looked up angrily at me.
"You think this is easy for me? Shes better off without me. She said it herself."
"She was angry she didn't mean it." I repeated, but it didn't seem like it was getting to him. My phone rang and it was Y/n. Somehow, Tony had made this network to allow us to talk from other planets. I fumbled answering and Loki looked intriguingly at me.
"Hello?"
Y/n told me about her sister and I told her I was on my way. Loki eavesdropped through the whole conversation and grew pale when I hung up.
"It's her sister." I informed him. He nodded with his eyes wide.
"Please let me out Thor. I can help her."
"You just said you aren't going to see her again." I said and he glared at me.
"You're pissing me off. Now let me out so I can help her. Please." I thought about it. Y/n is trying to move on. Would she be mad at me if I brought him? Probably. And if she is already broken up about her sister then this could be too much.

"No."
"What?"
"I'm not letting you. If she's worried about her sister then I can't have you adding more worry to her." He looked at me frustrated.
"Can't you see I'm trying to help?" He didn't help often so it was odd to see him like this.
"I'm sorry." I said and stood.
"You'll regret this."
"I have more important things to worry about now. Goodbye brother." I left without another word and went back to Earth.

Y/n's POV

Worry
Fear
Alone

I couldn't sit down and I paced around the room, picking at my fingers until they bled. Tony had went out to get everyone he could. He left me alone for my worries and fear to set in, to eat me alive again and again. I was in pure shock at the situation but I knew I had to stay strong for Jo.
It's going to be alright y/n. Just stay strong.

I used to say those words to myself over and over again while being tortured, and painful memories were coming back so fast, almost making me fall over.
It's going to be okay. Stay strong.
Why was I the one to always have to stay strong?

I wanted to throw something and yell until my lungs gave out, but I also wanted to sob and curl into a ball simultaneously. The shock wore off and another wave of fear made me fall to the ground, running my bloody fingers through my hair. My breath quickened and I grew dizzy. Before it could get worse, Bruce walked in and squatted down next to me.
"Y/n, look at me. Find my eyes." It was struggle but I finally found his glasses.
"Good. Now, breathe in and try to blow on my face." He had taught me this technique when I first had an attack. I couldn't breathe. How could he think I could do that? Why did everyone think I could do so much when I wasn't even capable of breathing?
Stay strong.
He took my hand and massaged my palm.
"Y/n, just focus on me. Don't think about anything else. Just look at me and nothing else." I drew my attention back to him and studied his face, his kind eyes and worried drawn face.
"Now try to blow out your breath." I exhaled shakily and he smiled. "You've got this just do that again."
I repeated it over and over again until I could properly breathe. He hugged me and helped me up.
"I'm so sorry y/n. We're going to find her." He told me. Nothing would console me. I had to sit down and put my head in my hands.

Everyone else filed in and Tony told them of my situation. Wanda came over and tried to help me relax with her powers, but to no avail.
"Y/n. I need you to try and find her." I sighed and stood. I had to help her. I had to stay strong.
I closed my eyes and searched for her. To do this, I would have to think of every little detail I knew of the person. So I thought long and hard.
Jet black hair
Green eyes
Peppermint smell
Crooked grin
McDonalds
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't see her. I began to panic. She couldn't be dead. I tried harder but everything was a blur. Then I remembered.
"It's Hydra. They probably put up something so I can't find her. They're trying to lure us in."
I told them.
"How would they know how to do that?"
"They knew how to work my powers. They could find a way to stop them too." This thought of helplessness made me have to sit down again.
"Well, we're gonna have to save her. They have done too much and this time we won't let you go alone." Steve assured me.

For the next hour, we put together a plan to find where she was and how to save her. We located the facilities just like we did at the last mission. Nat hacked into the cameras and we looked through all of the recordings of each facility. Finally, we found the one she was at. It wasn't too far away from the one Loki and I went to. Loki. Would he somehow know what was going on? Did he even care? No. I was being selfish. He wasn't here now because I made him leave. That was the only time I would allow myself to think about him.

Still, I've never felt more alone.