The Babysitting Job- Loki x Reader story

Chapter 21

Y/n's POV:

Flashback:

I was burning up. I felt the blisters on my hands. I had just gotten done with an experiment where I lashed out at the scientists for hurting me. They beat me and threw me into my room.
"It's okay it's okay everything's going to be fine." I whispered to myself, running my fingers on my sore head. I couldn't stop shaking.

Suddenly, the door opened. Dr. Morteese, the head of this experiment, came over to me. She put her hand on my cheek and I pulled away. Dr. Morteese smiled and checked my pulse.

"I know we seem like the bad guys now, but once this is over, you will be the most powerful person in the world." I looked at her angrily, tears running down my face.
"This is not what I signed up for." I spat. She forced that poisonous smile again.
"My dear, life isn't fair most times." She opened up her arms to me and I broke, falling into her arms as if I knew her my entire life.

Present:
It's okay, you're okay, it'll be over soon. Awful, horrific memories are coming to my head way too fast. Tony is showing pictures of the facility on the screen and is telling us what we were to do.

I bounce my knee over and over again and pick at my nails. I cant break down, not in front of Loki. But I can't think of anything else besides Dr. Morteese and her toxic smile.

Tony flips to another picture, showing a room exactly how mine was. Blaring white and thick with padding. I run out of the office. I can't do this.

"Y/n!" Tony shouts after me. I teleport to the lobby and sit down in a hallway. I know I cant teleport very far or else Tony could quite possibly kill me for leaving like that.

I hug my knees to my chest and rock myself. I put my head down to my knees and close my eyes.

Sooner or later Tony finds me and sits down across from me. He seems uncomfortable, like he doesn't know how to deal with this situation. I never want to be vulnerable around the avengers, but I can't stop the memories implanted into my mind which make me loose control.

"You know, Ive made out with Pep right where you're sitting." I know he is trying to help, but I won't laugh.

"Please don't make me do this." I whisper.
"Y/n, this could help you a lot more than you think-"
"No it won't! If I can't control myself by just a few pictures of the place then how do you expect me to pull off this mission? I won't be able to-to go in there because if I loose control then I would die and Loki would as well." I burst out. He stays quiet.
"I cannot jeopardize this mission. There's too much at risk. Please send someone else." I beg.

"Y/n, there's more than ten people in there just like you who need to get out. They are in the same position that you were in two years ago and they need your help. If you can't do it for yourself, then do it to save the others. You are the only one that has the ability to rescue all of them. Please just think about it."

I cant meet his eye. I look down at my shoes and wipe my tears away. Tony walks back to the office and I stay there for a few minutes longer. I have to get those people out of there. I can't let them die.

I get enough strength to get myself up and walk back to the office. Loki and Tony had been discussing something and stop as I walk in. I'm too weary to question this.
"I'm in."

Tony went on to tell us more about the mission. He says that the facility is a small one across the border in Mexico. The exact one that I was experimented in.

He tells us we will be leaving in two days and will fly there, so to not waste my energy teleporting everywhere. There's to be a gala one night full of Hydra officials that we will attend. We will take any evidence that we can that night and then rescue the others. Once that's done, the facility will be destroyed.