The Babysitting Job- Loki x Reader story

Chapter 31

Y/n's POV:
    When I told him what my date idea was, he laughed. "I'm from a whole other planet and even I know that's cliche." He said. I put a hand on my heart and looked dramatically taken aback at him. "I mean if you don't want to, we don't have to do this-"
"No, I do."
I smirked. "You want to do what?" I asked. He rolled his eyes
"I want to go on a date with you."
"Good boy." I patted his hand and he pulled away. I laughed at him and started the car. As we drove, I could feel a slight awkwardness as to where he would go after this day. As if he was the one who could read minds, he took one of my hands. "Hey, I'm not sure whether to stay or not, but let's please not talk about it today. I don't want to fight." That was rare. I was wanting to talk this out with him, but that'll have to wait. I agreed and decided to try and make this day the reason he stays.

      We got to my favorite restaurant near my apartment and ordered. I decided to get take out and eat it at Central Park. On the way there, the song My Girlfriend is a Witch came on. Loki looked at me and smiled. "This song reminds me of you." I laughed. "Oh so am I supposed to be your girlfriend now?" I asked teasingly. He pressed his lips together. "I mean, Im, I don't know-" I kissed him as the car parked to stop him from stammering. "I'm kidding. But you do realize a boyfriend usually stays with their girlfriend instead of leaving?" He looked at my lips. "Yeah, but we aren't very normal are we?" I shook my head "I guess not."
We dropped the conversation. What I didn't know then was that's how the day would go. We would ignore the knot in my stomach and then it would come up again and Loki would push it away.

        I grabbed the blanket out of the back of my trunk and my food. His fingers laced through mine and we began to walk down the sidewalk in comfortable silence. After a few minutes, two men started following close behind. I gripped Loki's hand.
"Putain regarde ce cul" one said and the other snickered. Damn look at that ones ass. Loki didn't understand what they said but I turned and walked up to the two.
"les petits garçons qui jouent avec le feu vont se brûler. Maintenant, allez trouver une femme qui se contentera de quelqu'un d'aussi horrible que vous." little boys who play with fire are going to get burned. Now go and find a woman who will settle for someone as horrendous as you. The one raised his eyebrows and murmured something to the other. They both turned and left. Loki looked at me in astonishment.
"Oh this is too much." He said.
"What?" I laughed.
"Not only are you outstandingly attractive, but you're also incredibly smart?" He asked.
"What, do smart and pretty women intimidate you?" I asked half-jokingly.
He smiled and looked down at the ground. "No it's just, I'm afraid I'll have to destroy you." He said in a deep voice. I raised my eyebrows and gasped.
"You'll have to catch me first." I said as I took off onto the park. He laughed and chased after me. I looked back to see where he was but when I turned my head I ran right into him, making both of us crash into the ground. He fell on top of me but stopped himself with his hands. I threw my head back and laughed. He looked at me and grinned. His eyes wandered down my face to my lips. I smiled and kissed him lightly. "What a tease." He said. I smirked and got out from under him.
    He helped me lay out the blanket on the grass and we laid on it, staring up at the sky.
"I like Earth." He said and I laughed. I looked over and stopped when I realized he was being serious.
"You do?" He nodded.
"Not as much as Asgard though. Do you like Asgard?" He asked, grabbing a bag of chips out of the food pile.
"Yeah a lot actually. I've been there several times. It's so beautiful and gold. Not to mention the fashion there. All of the people are so nice and don't know much of my past," I trailed off. He took one of my hands. "Don't let your past define you." He said. I looked back up at the blue sky.
"I try not to, but it's hard when my whole life is basically built around my traumatic experiences." He smiled slightly.
"Everyone is always reminding me about it and wants me to open up to them but I just want that to be behind me as the past should be. And in Asgard, no one is judging me and I can just relax." I told him. He looked at me funny.
"You talk of Asgard as if it's your home." I smiled and watched a bird fly in circles.
"You should come with me to Asgard." He said. I propped up on my side and looked at him. "Are you being serious? Like, do you mean just a vacation stay or a full on live there type thing?" He picked at a blade of grass. "Whatever. I mean, if you love it so much," he trailed off, letting my mind wander.
"I don't know, I would have to think about it." I said, reaching over to grab my sandwich. I took a bite and thought.
"I mean, I would go there for vacation but I have a life here with the Avengers I couldn't leave all of that behind. They're my family." He nodded. "It was just a thought." He murmured. I laid my head on his stomach. "Since when were you the one to think?" I asked and he chuckled. He played with my hair. "Asgard needs someone who thinks." He looked down at me and I knew what he was thinking.
"Wait. You don't think I or we could rule Asgard right? Right?" I repeated. He smiled at me. "Why not? I mean, if we're together now and technically I'm in line of the throne..." I raised my eyebrows at him and took another bite of my sandwich. I shrugged.
"Sure I guess." I rolled off of him and propped myself up on my elbows. "You realize I am being serious?" He asked me.
"You think Asgards people would be able to keep up with our ups and downs?"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, we aren't exactly a steady couple now are we? Tell you what, ask me that same question in a few years and then we can decide." Before he could retort, I kissed him and took a chip out of his bag. It felt like everything we talked about left with words unsaid, like either of us should be saying something but were not able to.
    After eating lunch, I laid down and drank in the sun.
"Can I ask you something?" Loki said from his spot in the shade where he was reading. I nodded. "Did you ever think you would be here with me, having lunch and enjoying yourself? Hopefully not thinking of killing me?" I laughed at his question.
"No. I thought honestly I would've killed you by now." He moved over to me and wrapped an arm around my waist. He moved his face so close to mine are noses were almost touching. "I was thinking the same thing." He whispered as I moved in to kiss him. He ran his fingers through my hair and pulled away to study my face. "You don't like to be vulnerable do you?" I was taken aback at the question.
"I guess I've always felt like I shouldn't be a hassle towards people. I mean, at Hydra, I was experimented on and was at the worst part of my life. Now, anything is better than that and I feel like I shouldn't be an inconvenience. Especially in front of all the godly Avengers."
"You're a god too."
"I know, it's just," I trailed off, tracing circles with my finger on his palm.
"I understand." He rolled onto his back and held my hand up to study it.
"Why don't you want to be vulnerable?" I asked him, dying to know.
"Because I'm the villain." He said it so simply, as if I had just asked him what color the sky was. I propped up on my side to look him in the eye.
"Wrong answer." He chuckled darkly.
"What?"
"I mean, you aren't a villain. Or you are and you're doing a really shitty job at it." I said.
"Explain."
"Well One, you're dating an Avenger. And you seem to be enjoying yourself. Two, you haven't killed a single one of the Avengers when you've been here for almost a year. And three, you didn't bow down and take Hydras side when we were fighting them. They are like the worst cooperation in the world so," he avoided my gaze. 
"What about all those innocent people I've killed?"
"Did you regret it?"
"No." He said quietly
I looked at him.
"A little bit. It was,"
I interrupted him, knowing exactly what he was going to say.
"Unsatisfactory? Like you thought it would stop the pain but it didn't?" He searched my eyes.
"How did you know that? I thought you couldn't read my mind."
"I can't. You and I aren't so different. I've always had this ache ever since I killed the first person, who was innocent, for Hydra. Hydra taught me that if I killed more, then the pain would go away and I believed them. It just got worse from there." I blinked away the tears in my eyes from the meteorites. He squeezed my hand. "I felt that way too." He said quietly. I wanted to hold him tight and protect him from all of his hurt and pain. I scooted closer to him and put my head on his chest. I wanted to push all of his hurt out but I didn't know how to. I felt the same way as I did last night. We both were hurt and broken from our pasts, and we both didn't know what the future holds, but we were here together now, and that's enough.

Right?