Love Means Healing

(13) Relapsed

TW// MENTIONS OF DRUG USE ⚠️

It's been about 2 months since Toni has seen Celia, her mom pulled her out of school, filed a restraining order against Toni and forbids her from going into their house. Toni hasn't stopped trying though, she's keeping her promise, she leaves money, gender neutral baby clothes, notes, rubber soles for Celia's shoes and her favorite foods, all on their doorstep. They accept the gifts and sometimes when Celia comes to get them off the porch she'll sneak a smile and wave at Toni, whenever her mother isn't around of course.

Although Toni has been responsible with the pregnancy, her life is still falling apart. She got attached to Celia. The first person she's ever been in love with. Before Celia she was a drug addict and alcoholic now that she's gone, unfortunately she's gone back to doing drugs, her dealer was shocked to hear from her but still sold her the heroin. She doesn't do hard drugs on the days she goes to Celia's house, she only smokes weed.

Kevin and Fangs think they've stopped her but she continues to do drugs in secret. They also think she's stopped going to the house, but she hasn't. She's also stopped going to school consistently, she's either too lazy or high to actually go. She still goes to work though, to provide for Celia and keep the roof over her head in case Celia's mom changes her mind.

She doesn't go to school because she's still known to be a popular play girl, if she goes back people will want to be around and talk to her and she's not in the correct mindset to be around people. She knows she has anger problems, she blames them on her father, back when they were around each other, his abuse and anger towards her made her angry. When she's high, she's angry, when she's stressed, she's angry. She knows she has a problem but she's too busy isolating herself to get help.

A normal day for Toni looks like this:

2 PM: Wake up

3PM: Eat junk food

4PM: Stop playing video games and maybe brush teeth

5PM: Drugs

6PM: More video games

7PM: More junk food

10PM: Order takeout then go to work

3 AM: Smoke

And by 4 AM she's knocked out

Sometimes if she gets mad throughout the day she'll break things.

Today it's around 5 PM and she's rolling her first blunt of the day. She hears a car beep, signaling it was locked, but didn't think anything of it until she heard the door unlocking. She quickly hid the weed and tried to spray air freshener but before she could she saw FP walk through the door with Kevin and Fangs behind him.

"Toni, what the hell?!"

He walks closer to her seeing the obvious bags under her red eyes and smelling the weed.

"What?"

"What do you mean 'what' look at you!"

She just stands in the corner with a bottle of  Febreze in hand

"I literally mean look at you, you look awful"

"Wow thanks"

FP walks closer to her, he grabs her arm and drags her to the bathroom, stepping on broken glass and empty chip bags on the way there.

"Look in the mirror"

As she looks up at herself FP starts to lecture her

"You look exactly how you did after Peaches! Do you want to go back to that?"