The Space Between a Rock and a Hard Place- 5SOS

Chapter Fifteen

Everything I Didn't Say- 5 Seconds of Summer

Ashton Irwin:

"Hey, Av, how's LA been? Lonely without all of us?"

"Pretty much, Ash, missed you guys" she responds, laughing at my comment.

"You sure about that? We got pretty crazy over there in Canada,"

"Oh no, what did you guys do," Av asks, disappointed in us already. We take a seat in her small living room, and the snacks for movie night are sat on the side table.

"Mike and I may have gotten a little too drunk. And Luke just can't hold his alcohol," I say, "Calum was being an ass, didn't want to join in on the fun most of the night, and then we all got kicked out... that was Michael though, he definitely was the one who get us kicked out,"

"Oh my gosh, I can't believe you guys drank," she says, putting her face in her hands. It's cute. Her hair is straightened today and falls over her shoulders as she laughs at our past actions.

"Too late to do anything about it," I give her a guilty smile, "Okay, what ridiculous movie are you going to make me sit through this time?

"It's a rom-com, I'm sorry," Av responds, dragging out her sorry like that's going to make it any better. I'm never going to tell her that I actually don't hate them as much as I act like I do. Unrealistic, yes, but still decent movies.

"Should we talk about, you know... first?" she adds.

"Yeah, well, I guess it's always been in the back of my brain, ever since we broke up. That was our biggest mistake. You were worth enduring the struggles of long-distance, but I just let you slip away from me. I didn't fight it, didn't try to tell you it was the wrong way to handle it all," I confess. We were both to blame.

"I'm sorry, I didn't even try-"

"It's not like I was any better Av,"

"To be honest, Ash, I really thought I had moved on, and then I wasn't okay, I realized I screwed up,"

"I'm glad you called me yesterday, I don't think I would have ever said anything. I almost did though, that night in the bathroom... but I didn't. And then you called about Calum, and I didn't think I could anymore,"

"I'm really not sure what that was, Ashton, I'm sorry about all that," Av fidgets with the edge of her yellow sweatshirt, my sweatshirt actually, I never got that one back.

"It kinda hit me how much I really missed you when I took your hand, I just meant to comfort you, but it just reminded me of when we were together. I hadn't been that close to you in so long,"

I interlace my fingers with hers, and to my surprise, she doesn't pull away. Our hands fit together well, like puzzle pieces. For once, we weren't hiding it under tables, or in dark cars at night, we were just- us.

"Can we start over? Do this properly?" I ask.

"Yes, Ash,"

She leans against me, a new feeling of open we didn't have back then, and starts the movie. The things I do for her.

But it feels like heaven, finally having her back and next to me.

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hi, I cried writing this for some reason idk, i think i'm just WAY too single for any of this... anyways thanks for stayin around this long :)