Obsessive Secrets

Chapter 12

*2 days later*

“Okay so just move your arm in a circle like this and tell me if anything feels weird.” The doctor tells me as she circles her arms around and around. I am so happy to be getting this stupid thing off my shoulder. “Is it okay?” she asks.

“Yeah it feels fine.” I say smiling at her and she gives me a happy nod.

“Well then you’re set. Just make sure you keep taking those medications for another week and then you can be done with all this medical stuff.” she says. I love doctors who admit that people hate having to go through all this medical mumbo jumbo. I mean doctors who say things  like “oh well hopefully we’ll see you again” are so annoying and stupid. I mean who in their right mind would want to “hopefully” see the doctor again? It was a breath of fresh air when doctors said things like “make sure not to hurt yourself, I don’t want to see you here anytime soon.” Those doctors were the best kind.

“Thank you so much doctor.” I sit up from the medical bed, covered with a white sheet of paper, and I shake the doctors hand. I turn around but she keeps hold of my hand and I look at her a bit confused.

“I know this isn’t any of my business but next time I wouldn’t trust an ex-boyfriend.” she says to me and I give her a sad smirk.

“Hopefully I won’t be having an ex-boyfriend anytime soon.” I say looking down at the ground, I couldn’t imagine Ashton ever being an “ex-boyfriend”.

“Oh. Do you have a boyfriend now?” the doctor says to me. For some reason I like this doctor, and I feel comfortable around her, maybe, you know since she’s a doctor and all, she can give me advice on how to avoid nightmares and how to feel less lonely. Of course it would help if she was a psychologist and not an orthopedist but I mean it’s worth the shot.

“Yeah we’ve...we’ve been dating for almost a year now...it’ll be a year in August...August 8th to be exact.” I say and I can feel my body get hot and I feel myself blushing.

“How sweet. I’m happy for you two. It’s hard to keep a long lasting relationship at a young age like yours. What his name?” she says smiling.

“Ashton.” I say. I love saying his name. Because every time I say it I imagine him, and how he is mine and no one elses.

“Are you two in love?” she asks which throws me by surprise.

“Very much.” I reply back smiling as I cover my red cheeks with my hands so that she doesn’t notice I am getting flustered.

“Well good, it’s a good thing to know that there is someone special out there you love and who loves you back. My ex-boyfriend and I were in love. We were so close to each other we could hardly stand to be apart. But then...then he moved away long distance and at first we thought our love would fight through it but after two weeks it was just too much. He was constantly worrying about me and I about him and we realized our love for each other was making us weaker. In the end, even though we didn’t want to, no matter how badly it hurt at first, we split up and became good friends. It was easier that way. I’m sorry I didn’t mean to hit you with my life, I know you 18 year olds don’t want to listen to a 29 year old’s problems.” I look down at my hands and I become sad all of a sudden and I can feel tears coming. What if that happens with me and Ashton.

“So you don’t think long distance things work, even if they are just for little while?” I ask holding back tears.

“I mean in my experience no. It’s best to keep the one you love most close to yo-”

“Oh.” I interrupt her and I wipe away a tear with the back of my hand.

“Sweetheart did I say something-”