Obsessive Secrets

Chapter 13

Daniella's POV

“You’re funny Ash. Well I should go.” I say as I look at Lara staring at me as she sits at the dining table and eats her donut.

“Aww man okay. I miss you. I love you babe.” Ashton says and all I say is,

“I miss you too.” and then I hang up.

“No, I love you?” Lara asks as I take a seat across from her. I just look at her and roll my eyes and take a donut from the bag. We both eat in silence until all the food is gone. The only noise being made is the noise of Lara getting messages from Michael.

“Has he made a move yet?” I ask sternly. Lara puts her phone down and looks up at me.

“No for your information he hasn’t.” she says.

“Then why are you guys texting so much?” I say back.

“Because we’re friends.” she replies.

“Oh that’s right you’re just friends.” I say and I look down at my hands.

“Look I’m sorry. I’m sorry I would think you would try and kill yourself over some boy. I’m sorry I said that you’re changing because of some boy-”

“Some boy?” I snap.

“No not some boy...that’s not what I meant-”

“Then what did you mean?”

“I just meant that ever since Ashton you’ve changed and-”

“Ashton has changed me for the better.”

“But has he really?” Lara asks.

“You know what I think I just want to be alone right now.” I say.

“Dani no we were going to hang out”

“Yeah well I think I want to be alone right now.” I say looking up at her.

“Fine I’ll leave.” she says scooting out from under the table and grabbing her car keys. I walk her to the door and she opens it and before she leaves she pauses and looks at me. “I’ll text you.” she says. I nod to her and give a half hearted smile. She gives me a half hearted smile back and she walks off to her car and I shut the door behind me and I lean up against it and I scootch my way down to a sitting position. I bury my head in my hands and I let out a frustrating grunt. God. I can't believe her. I mean I know she is trying to look out for me but still. I just can’t help but wonder if she was right. I know Ashton has changed me, and all along I thought he has changed me for the better but here I am sitting alone, I just made my bestest friend leave my house, I can’t think straight, I’m having nightmares, I’m emotional. Ashton has become this foundation that I need to keep myself together and now that I’m not with him I’m...I’m falling apart. I get up and I run up to my room and I jump onto my bed and look up to my ceiling. I look at my phone and I read the texts from Ashtin that he sent me while I was driving home.

“We are stronger together.” I kept reading that message over and over and over. We may be stronger together, but the stronger we are together, the weaker we are apart. I throw my phone to the side of me and I stare blankly at the ceiling. I remember when I didn’t feel this way about Ashton. When thinking about him leaving was just thinking about Ashton leaving. When him leaving wasn’t me losing my everything. 

 “Okay, I will ask you a question and then you’ll ask me a question and we’ll just keep going back and forth.” Ashton says as we both sit on his hotel bed criss cross with his hands on my legs and my hands on his. He takes his thumbs and rubs my thighs with them and we are both smiling and giggling.