Foolish
"Wrong decisions could kill, so is foolishness..."
My eyelids were heavy like I've slept for a long time when I fluttered my eyes open slowly a couple of times.
I recognized the white ceiling and as I glanced around, I immediately know I'm in the hospital.
My throat feels so dry that every gulp of my own saliva almost felt painful. Pain.
Memories of what happened dawned on me in that instant. The pain caused by hurtful words, the pain for leaving someone you love and need the most, the pain of being stabbed with a knife on my gut and the pain of being left alone on the road, laying in my own pool of blood...
Shivers ran through my body as the image of those memories kept replaying through my mind.
What comes first in mind to a person who almost faced death? Heaven? Hell? Sadness? Regret? I don't know for sure. All I know is that at that moment, I thought of nothing but pain and loneliness.
I'm alone in the room. Gustuhin ko mang mag-isip pa ng mga nangyari'y wala akong lakas. Nauuhaw ako. I tried sitting up kahit pa ramdam ko ang kirot sa aking sugat. I'm alone in the room. I stared at the door for a while, expecting someone to come in but after a few seconds, there was no one. Did Lylian's men kidnapped me unconscious? Tinago ba nila ako sa isang ospital kung saan walang nakakakilala sa akin?
Sinubukan kong tumayo at nang makita't maramdamang kaya ko naman ay dahan-dahang naglakad ako patungo sa pinto. Dahan-dahan ko rin iyong binuksan ng kunting siwang lamang. Sumilip ako sa labas. Outside I saw the backs of five men standing guard on the door. They looked like highly trained men. Nanlamig ako. Tama ba ang naiisip ko kanina?
"Sino raw ba ang naconfine d'yan? Bakit ang daming security?"
"Hindi ko alam. Narinig ko sikat na artista raw. Ewan."
I heard the conversation of the two women who just passed by. Hindi ko alam kung anong dapat maramdaman sa narinig. Did Lylian spread that to hide my identity? Para wala ng magtanong pa? But it doesn't make sense. Why would she bring me to a hospital and save my life and then hide me instead of taking me to some abandoned building or better yet just drop my body in the ocean? She clearly wants me dead.
Hindi pa man ako natatapos sa pag-iisip ay natanaw ko na ang dalawang nurses at isang doktor na papunta dito. Umatras ako sa pinto saktong bumukas iyon.
"Hala, ma'am ba't kayo tumayo?!"
Parang naeskandalo sa gulat at kaba ang nurse nang hindi inaasahang makita ako roon. Inalalayan nila akong dalawa pabalik sa kama at pinahiga.
The doctor was looking at us all the while. Muling bumukas ang pinto at sa pagkakataong ito ay hindi ko napigilan ang pamimilog ng mata sa saya at gulat ng makita si Zyan at Ryle. They were the ones who found me!
Zyan looked like he hasn't been sleeping for days while Ryle next to him looked as fresh as ever. Zyan stood there at the foot of the bed just staring at me, frozen. He looks like he wants to come closer but he's restraining himself.
I wanted to ask so many questions but the doctor spoke first.
"She could have really died had you been late for 5 minutes when you brought her here."
I shivered again upon hearing that. I could have died...
"Shut up! There's no way in hell." Zyan muttered angrily under his breath. He glared at the doctor and Ryle tapped his back. The doctor ignore him and started checking on me and running some test.
"Stop terrorizing the doctor. She looks fine." Ryle chuckled. Siya ang naunang lumapit sa akin at tiningnan akong mabuti.
"I can't the decide whether you're really smart or a moron." He told me. I did not understand what he meant. "But my cousin here is an even bigger moron than you."
"Stop talking Ryle, or I'll make you!"
Kahit ako'y nagulat sa diin ng galit niyang boses. He seems so on edge, so nervous and angry.
"Fine, I'll leave you be first. I'll be back later." Natatawang umatras si Ryle palayo sa akin at lumabas ng silid.
Natapos ang doctor sa pagchicheck at ngayon ay may isinusulat nalang na kung ano sa records ko. He then passed it on to the other nurse while the other one checked on my stab wound.
"So far, her recovery is great though she has to stay in the hospital for a few more days." The doctor said.
"How long was I unconscious, doc?" The doctor looked at me and smiled reassuringly.
"Three days. You lost too much blood. Luckily, we found someone with the same blood type as you immediately."
Marami pa siyang binilin na mga hindi ko dapat gawin sa ngayon upang hindi magalaw o matanggal ang tahi ng sugat ko at maiwasan ding magka-infection. Pagkatapos ay lumabas na siya kasama ang dalawang nurse.
I glanced at Zyan who's still standing there, looking so lost, scared and angry while looking at me. I smiled at him and raise a hand to reach out for him.
"You heard the doctor. I'm okay." Hindi ko alam bakit pakiramdam ko, siya ang kailangan kong iassure na okay lang ako imbes na siya dapat ang gumawa.
He took a step closer to me and held my hand. Nakatayo na siya ngayon sa harap ko, isang hakbang lang ang layo.
I looked up at him and smiled."I'm really okay now."
Hawak pa rin ang kamay ko, marahang hinaplos niya iyon. "Why did you leave the house?" Galit siya ngunit dinig na dinig ko naman ang lungkot sa boses niya.
"I was foolish. I thought I was doing you a favor." Ayokong sabihin ang tungkol sa mama niya dahil ayoko namang magkagulo pa sa pagitan nila ng dahil sa akin.
He closed his eyes and bowed his head down, still holding my hand. He looks so exhausted yet relieved. I can't believe how calm he is despite all the emotions I saw brewing in his eyes. Gusto ko siyang yakapin ng mahigpit at sabihing sobrang saya ko na siya ang nakahanap sa akin, sobrang saya ko na nandito siya ngayon sa tabi ko at pinro potektahan ako. Pero naalala ko ang sinabi ng mama niya.
"How did you find me?"
He looked me in the eye this time. Galit pa rin ang mga mata. His jaw clenched and his hold on my hand tightened.
"The same way they found you. You used your card." He sighed, trying to control his own rage. Kung para sa akin ba? Highly likely.
My lips parted in realization. Tama... Why did I have to be so stupid that day? I made all the wrong decisions. They were able to trace my location based on the recent transaction I made with my card that day.
Nang binalik ko ang tingin sa kanya'y nasa akin na rin ang titig niya. His eyes looks bloodshot like he's about to cry but controlled himself. It hurt looking at him like this.
"I'm sorry." My voice never sounded as gentle as now.
His arms embraced my waist loosely, making sure he won't hurt me as he buried his face on my chest. I heard him sighed like he's just so relieve that he's holding me now. I can feel all of it.
His worry, his fear, and his anger slipping away from him as he hugged me. I hugged him back and carressed his hair gently.
Naiiyak ako. Why did I have to be so foolish that day? Did the insults from his mom really made me incapable of thinking rationally? I hate that I made him feel this devastated over me.
"Please, don't ever do that again." He pleaded in a broken voice, it felt like someone squeezed my heart to crush it.
Maybe it's better if he would just rant at me about how stupid I am for what I did. Maybe it would have been better if he blamed me and screamed in my face but he choose to be so patient, gentle and loving.
"Please, just stay with me..."
Sa mga sandaling iyon, natakot ako. Natakot akong baka sa pagkakataong ito, ay hindi ko na kaya pang pakawalan siya kahit pa anong sabihin ng iba. Kahit pa ng mama niya...
BINABASA MO ANG
The Fake Heiress
Любовные романы"I am the real Blaire Fenella Candelanza." I wanted so bad to scream the words. But it would be futile. Because that name does not belong to me.
