Never the Right Time

Chapter 13

The next day, I was still processing everything. There was no real way we could be together now. He was having a baby with Rebecca. As much as I was biased against her, I couldn't get in the way of that. I wouldn't be that person. Ugh everything got some complicated. I guess the silver lining was that it was still so early in whatever we were trying to be, that it was easy to just stop.

I groaned internally.

I ran into Hannah as I walked into the kitchen.

"Why do you look like someone killed your cat?" She asked.

" Mark's ex is pregnant"

Hannah's eyes went wide, "Fuck"

"Yea that's my sentiment. You know Mark, there is no way he doesn't do everything he can to support her and this baby. As much as it hurts, I have to bow out and let him handle this however he needs to do that. It fucking sucks." I dropped into the chair and laid my head down on the table.

Hannah rubbed my back, "That's so shitty. You guys would've been great together, but you're doing the right thing. You don't want to complicate it further."

I just nodded. She was right. I wouldn't and shouldn't get involved now. It's for everyone's best interest.

Mark's POV

That next morning, I emailed my professors and told them that I had a family emergency and wouldn't be in class this week. I needed to get my shit together.

I was about to text Soph when I found the note she hid for me to find.

Mark,

I'm sorry I didn't stay, I want you to know that I will support you with whatever you need, but I think its for the best if we just stay friends for now. I will always be crazy about you, but this is a huge life change and I know you need to do what's best for your baby and Rebecca. Seriously don't hesitate to ask for help. I'll always be there for you.

Yours forever,

Soph

I burst into tears. It felt like everything was crumbling around me. I knew I would always have Soph in my life, but I had always known that there was more under the surface.

I had to buck up and figure my shit out. I would figure this whole thing out.

I texted Rebecca for the appointment information and got breakfast. She immediately texted back, letting me know that it was two days from now in the afternoon. After assuring her that I would be there, I went back to sleep. I didn't want to handle the rest of the day.

That night I woke up and needed to call Soph. I needed to hear her voice.

"Hey" she whispered sadly

"I got your note" I told her

" oh"

"I hate that you're doing the right thing" I said softly.

" me too" she whispered

"I won't be in class tomorrow. I decided to take the week off"

"that's probably smart. You'd be distracted anyways." She responded

We were both silent for a minute, before my emotions got the best of me.

"I hate this so much" I sobbed

"You have no idea how much I do too." She said "its just not for the best that we complicate anything more in your life." She added sadly.

"Yea" I whispered.

"I'll still be here for you. As much as it might hurt, you need to do what you think is right. I just want you to be happy."

I sobbed through the phone.

"I will keep you updated. I should go" I finally said after I tried to compose myself.

"Ok" In heard her sniffle "I'll talk to you later. Bye"

" bye" I whispered

As I hung up the phone, I couldn't help the tears that came. Everything was changing and I wasn't ready. God knows how Rebecca must be feeling through all of this.