Never the Right Time

Chapter 18 Sophia POV

Even though Mark didn't really explain anything, I knew he needed someone to help distract him from all of this as much as possible. I went to the store on my way over there to pick up a few things.

His roommate Matt, let me into the house. When I burst into his room, I found him laying on his side looking at his phone. It made me sad to see him so despondent. It was clear that today had thrown him for a loop.

I knocked on the door frame that I leaned on. His head shot up when he noticed me standing there.

"Soph!"

"So I wasn't sure what kind of night you would like to have, so I brought a few different kinds of dessert, junk food, and liquor." I told him as I moved into the room closing the door behind me.

He sat up and wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me between his legs.

"You're an angel." He said and looked up at me with his chin propped on my belly. I couldn't help but swoon a little.

"I know." I said flippantly as I put my bag down and flopped on the bed. "What should we dig into first?" I asked

" ice cream, Doritos and then liquor in that order" he said with certainty.

I laughed, "Done!" And pulled out the ice cream and a spoon.

I watched as he dug into the ice cream and his face as he gave a little moan. I turned on a show and curled into his side. He didn't need to explain anything, it was clear that he needed to distract himself from everything going on. For a while we watched tv while and he fed me a spoonful every now and then. I realized how perfect this all was and how much I missed his face this week. He rubbed my back as I snuggled in closer. I could've stayed like that for forever, but I knew it was impossible. I couldn't forget the fact that he was having a baby with his ex. Our chance had passed and we missed it without even realizing it. I knew that even though we couldn't have what we wanted that I would accept as much as he could give, because I was crazy about him. We stayed like that for a few hours. After a while, Mark let out a huge sigh.

"Thanks for coming over and vegging out with me." He ran a hand over his face. "Today sucked so much"

"Do you want to talk about it?" I asked hesitantly

"Are you sure?" He asked with one eyebrow cocked "I know all of this can't be easy for you."

" I was serious about being there for you. I'm no fair weather friend" I laughed.  "But seriously, I'm here for whatever you need."

"Well I realized how amazing my parents are. They accepted everything with a smile on their faces and said they would support us no matter what. I also talked to my dad about how I don't really want to get back with Rebecca just because of the baby. He said he thinks that I'm being smart about it. So thankful for them. But Rebecca's parents acted like I had raped her and that I was the spawn of the devil. It was insane. They instantly kicked me out and Rebecca let them. It's fine, this is more her problem than mine, but that's still my baby. I deserve to be involved."  He explained

"Geez, well maybe things will start looking up now that you both have told your parents. Rebecca is an adult and while she is still young, her parents don't have any real control over her. I'm sorry that they are being shitty. I might be biased, but I'm pretty sure that you're definitely not the spawn of the devil."

He laughed, "You're definitely biased."

I pulled him into a hug, "It'll all work out." I said trying to be reassuring.

I started to pull away and he pulled me back into his body, "Nope, you're not going anywhere. We are staying like this for forever."

"Fine by me" I laughed and melted in his arms.

I couldn't help but think, how this was only going to end in heartbreak. I felt like I had the tiniest bit of hope when he said he wouldn't get back with her, but it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out that literally everything will change once that baby is born and Mark would never be one to shirk his responsibilities. That baby would come first and I wouldn't want to change that at all.

I was suddenly very conscious of his arms around me. I had to put some distance between us. I loved him, but I would be lying if I said it wouldn't hurt watching him raise a baby with someone else. I pushed away from him.

"I better head out. It's getting late." I said trying to sound nonchalant

A look of confusion passed over his face for a quick second before he brushed it off, "Oh-ok yea. No worries."

I packed up my stuff and he walked me out the door. I turned around to face him, "I guess I'll see you later." I shrugged still trying to keep an even voice even though I felt like he was slowly slipping away. I started to walk through the door, when he grabbed my wrist and pulled into him. He wrapped his arms around me and planted a kiss on my head.

"See you later" he whispered as he released me. I all but ran out the door. I needed space from how conflicted I was feeling. I had fallen for him a long time ago, but as always the timing is always off. Clearly our feelings were never enough for us to be together, life would always get in the way and I needed to wrap my head around it fast.