Never the Right Time

Chapter 14

The week seemed to crawl by. Mark called yesterday to get me to send notes for our physics class. I sent those over and worked a shift at the store. Every bit of me wanted to go see Mark, but I knew we both needed space or we would do something dumb.

I threw myself into my school work to distract me. Hannah was clearly worried, she kept making sure I was eating and would put snacks next to make to remind me.

Friday came around. Today was the appointment that Mark was going to with Rebecca. I was half hoping that he would just not call, but the other half was desperate to know what was going on. I felt like I was asking for punishment.

At the end of the day Hannah dragged me out for happy hour at the Mexican place down the street. After a margarita and a whole bowl of queso, I was starting to feel like a normal person. I kept giving myself pep talks. I could do this. I will be fine. Everything will work out however its meant to.

Over the mariachi band, I heard my phone ring. Scrambling to get it out of my pocket I saw mark's face. I hurried to answer.

"Mark!" I huffed

"Whoa, are you ok? You sound out of breathe"

"I'm fine, I was just struggling to get my phone out of my pocket."

He chuckled softly.

"How are you? How was today?" I asked

He groaned softly, "well it's a baby"

"Well at least its not an alien or a tiny monster. That would be a real downer." I joked softly

"This is true" I could hear the smile in his voice, " I'm so fucked though."

" no" I tried to reassure him, " it'll all work itself out. You're pretty resourceful."

"Ugh, thanks Soph. This is not what I envisioned we would be talking about ever."

"Me either. You know we will be ok. I mean its not the type of relationship that we had hoped for, but its better than nothing. And who knows we might have been the worst couple if we dated." I said half joking.

His voice got low, "we both know we would've been amazing together" he said gruffly.

My knees buckled a little bit. "Well I have to tell myself something to make myself feel better."

I heard him laugh gruffly.

"I should get back to Hannah or she will eat the rest of the queso" I told him. "I'll talk to you later. Drive safe"

"Bye Soph" he said softly.

Hannah gave me a once over when I sat back down.

"You alright?" She asked very matter of factly

I nodded my head "he said we would've been great together" I said just barely audible.

"Oh Soph," she said softly pulling me into a hug, " he isn't wrong, but you're doing the right thing. It'll get better I promise"

I just nodded my head.

" now come on. Let's go watch something dumb on Netflix and forget about all the shittiness."

"That sounds good" I said through sniffles.

The rest of the night was spent watching dumb movies to forget how awful I felt. It only helped a little bit, but it was a step towards feeling better. I just had not keep telling myself that everything would be fine.