She's my yellow/ Hosie/Hizzie

If i was to say yes

Well last night was eventful, if anyone had suspected something between Lizzie and i before they sure as hell knew it now. I felt betrayed, that was a secret meant to stay between two people, not the entire school.

As embarrasing as it was, Josie didn't really even question it, i was glad as that could've complicated things alot.

I feel at this point as if Lizzie has two sides to her, the ruthless, emotionless, 'bitchy' side and then the calm, sweet and caring side which came out the other day, i guess it was an act though seen as she's had every girl in school at this point, i doubt she didn't use the same tactic towards them aswell.

I couldn't physically face going to school today, the embarrasment i would feel knowing the whole school knew, i just couldnt.

I didn't want to lay in bed all day though, i needed a distraction at most. Maybe take a walk into Mystic Falls, fuck knows i just got to get out of here.

I didn't even bother letting Alaric know, i just wanted to get out as quick as possible.

I got dressed, grabbed a jacket and made my way out around 10am, timing it perfectly that everyone was in lessons.

I picked up the pace as i ran down the halls, until i stop dead in my tracks. Sharply outside Dr Saltzmans office. 

There stands a certain blonde, Lizzie Saltzman.

Obviously about to be scolded by her father, maybe for last night? fuck knows i try ignore her and make my way to the doors, but im stopped by her voice. "Marshall" In a soft undertone.

"Marshall, w-wait... I need to explain" Lizzie's voice utters. "Fuck off Lizzie" I reply coldly, full of hate while i make my way towards the doors once again.

I then hear a couple screams and yells coming from the office, obviously coming from Lizzie and her father where i hear "I'LL BE BACK AT 5" while Lizzie comes running down the corridor towards me, shortly following Alaric behind her, trying to catch her.

Lizzie grabs my arm as we run towards the Salvatore gates and make it out of site of the school.

"Get the fuck off me" I yell, Snatching my arm back from Lizzie's grip. 

"Marshall, come on. Atleast let me apologise" Lizzie's voice lowers to a more kind tone.

I've fallen for this 'nice' act before, all she wants is to get in my pants again, i'm not falling for this again.

"In the kindest way possible, i don't want anything to do with you, so move" I reply back, Lizzie stood infront of me.

"Please" The girl sighs.

I was kind of intrigued of what was so important to tell me that i gave in. "You have 5 minutes" I say, cold undertones lining my words.

"Let me show you" Lizzie says, grabbing my wrist and dragging me towards an alleyway, i expected her to stop but the girl never does.

We reach the end, where it opens out to see the field from the other night, the same lake at the bottom, the kiss.

All the memories flood back where i let it known that im confused of why im here again.

"Come on" Lizzie smiles, "I don't bite". Well that was debatable.

"Why are we here Lizzie" My voice exhausted.

Lizzie stops at the bottom of the field, laced with flowers now visable in the daylight. 

"You know how the other night i explained how this place was my 'safe space'?" The Blonde explains to which i reply "Yeah, i think so".

"Listen, do you know why i need certain 'time outs' or react to different things in ways others wouldnt?" Lizzie asks, seeming almost overwhelmed.

"I don't know, stress? fuck knows Lizzie" I reply, waiting for the excuse she was going to give me.

"Sit, i'm about to tell you something only my father and my sister know, for the fact that i find it embarrassing and don't want people to look at me any different... Promise you won't tell a soul?" Lizzie says worried.

"i won't tell anyone" I say calmly.

"Now this is in no way an excuse of any sort, i just want you to know that my brain functions a little different, i have BD Hope, i can't control my outbursts or mood changes at all" I see Lizzie's face fall, is she embarrassed?

"BPD as in Bipolar Disorder?" I ask. 

"Yeah, Bipolar Disorder... its my brains chemistry... its just different to everyone elses and as much as i'd like to control it, my brain just betrays me sometimes" Lizzie's voice trembles, on the verge of tears.

"Like i said, its in no way an excuse but last night was one of my 'episodes' which is what my father calls them"

"I'm usually good at controlling them by noticing signs of an episode and making my way towards here so i don't hurt anyone... But last night i just went off the edge, my emotions sky rocketed after what happened in the dorm with us, i got drunk to try stall it..."

"Until i saw you at the party... your words repeated in my head on loop and i couldn't deal with it all so i lashed out and im so fucking sorry Hope, I didn't know what i was doing until it was too late"... Lizzie explained, her eyes welled up at this point, this was clearly a sensitive topic for her.

"I dont know what to say, i shouldn't have said those things Lizzie, i was upset as i seemed like some sort of object to you... i'm sorry" I apologised, i felt bad for Lizzie, she had issues i couldn't even begin to understand.

"No you don't need to apologise Hope, after all what you said was true-" 

I cut her off   "No it wasn't Lizzie, i was trying to hurt you, i didn't mean it" 

"It doesn't matter if you meant it or not, it was true, i made you feel like shit in the morning and expected you to be like all the other girls, i shouldn't have done that" Lizzie apologises once again.

"Oh yeah, i've heard you've made your way around the school haven't you Saltzman?" I joke, Lizzie chuckles.

"Kind of... no one even came close to refusing me before... guess my streak with girls was cut short, you're different Marshall" Lizzie smiles at me, thats the Lizzie i grew to like.

"I'm different am i? i resisted the Lizzie Saltzman charm, what can i say, im too good" I say with sarcasm.

"Can't flatter your ego too much, But seriously though Hope, i know i've broken your trust but its up to you what happens next, if you want to hate me, thats okay i get it, if you'd want to be friends, thats okay too" Lizzie speaks.

Truthfully i wanted more, but not wanting to overstep i uttered "Friends, I like that".

I can sense Lizzie's mood fall with that but she puts on a fake smile, respecting my wishes "Friends, i'll take it" Lizzie jokes.

"Lets head back, before my dad scolds me even more" The taller girl starts to walk off, expecting me to be beside her.

I stand back, trying to hold myself back from what im about to do, but i can't. I had caught feelings.

"Lizzie wait" 

I run towards where she is, swing my arms around her neck and push my lips against her own.

Lizzie doesn't object as wraps her arms around my waist, I feel her lips form a small smile before she pulls away "Friends?" Lizzie giggles. 

"Shutup" I chuckle.

Her smile was so precious, i feel as if i was the only one to understand her, reach the true 'Lizzie'

"Alright, if you say so" Before i can even process what was going on, Lizzie scoops me onto her back in a piggyback style.

I tell her to put me down but she doesn't, she carries me the entire way to the Salvatore School like this, reaching the gates shortly after.

Everything was perfect.