She's my yellow/ Hosie/Hizzie

Its okay

Its the weekend so i didn't set an alarm so waking up with Josie Saltzman on my chest after last night was a nice thing to wake up to.

The Saltzmans have two different energies that draw me to each one individually, Lizzie is powerful, smart, unpredictable while Josie is Shy, Smart and soft i can't explain it.

I notice Josie is still asleep as i try not to wake her, as i reach for my phone.

I remember what happened last night, how Lizzie's voice made me feel, how kissing Josie also made me react. 

It was all too complicated and i don't need to worry myself right? 

I click Lizzie's contact on my phone and type a quick 'good morning' text, knowing she wont be awake for a while due to the time difference.

Just as i try to shimmy out of bed, i unfortunatly awake Josie.

Her eyes bat open as i recieve a small smile in return, "Good morning Jo" 

"Your voice is so nice in the morning, i like it" Josie speaks with a small smile still plastered on her face.

"Stoppp i hate my voice in the morning its so raspy and deep" I reply.

"Nope i wish you spoke like that more often, its nice" Josie speaks as i make my way out of bed.

"Hey Hope do you mind if i borrow some of your clothes, i really don't want to go back to my dorm at the moment" Josie speaks, clearly upset.

"Yeah sure no problem, whats up?" I ask.

"Its just been really quiet since Lizzie left, it makes me miss her so bad i hate it... i havent been in since she left" Josie clearly getting worked up.

"Yeah, i would say i miss her too, but i know it sounds harsh but after what she did at the party i'm kind of glad shes gone for a little" I lie through my teeth, honestly i'd love to tell Josie that her sister an i got along, but i'd also have to tell her everything that happened between us.

And in all honesty i'm not sure if i know exactly myself what is happening between Lizzie and i, I'll tell her eventually... just not now.

"Yeah, i get you... anyway, i've got to go to this meeting for the stupid 'student council' at school... i'll be back around 4 if you'd want to go out or something?" Josie speaks as she checks her watch and motions to head out the door.

"Yeah, i'll see you soon Jo" i speak as she exits the room.

Almost instantly after Josie leaves my room, my phone buzzes... 

Saltzman 1 

Morning Blondie

Ummm who do you think you're speaking
to Marshall

Woah you're awake early

Yeah London's time zones are weird, still
wish you were here though.

I wish you were here, its quiet without you

not sure if thats a good thing or not.

Yeah what can i say, i'm the life of the party Marshall,
You miss me don't you?

I- no. Well maybe, shut up Saltzman

Awww, Its alright Hope, your secret is safe with me

Anyway, i got to go unpack, if you'd want i'll be free

in about an hour if you'd want to call?

Yeah, my super super busy schedule can slot you into call in an hour

Cool, i'll hear your pretty voice soon

Why was i nervous to call Lizzie all of a sudden? I felt my insides turning inside out... i'm not an awkward person but she makes me feel some type of way, i can't pin point it.