The Show Must Go On

12

"you're always with moonbin recently.."

I looked at umji beside me holding her water bottle. We just finished our performance for New Year's live and we're now waiting for the countdown and we will be with the other artist on the stage.

It happened too fast, like I blinked and were now not talking to each other. We crossed paths, but we acted like we didn't know each other.

I'm always with moonbin, with suji and eunseo to hang out since they have time. I'm not always with moonbin, I'm always with my friends.

"in the eyes of the people, you're still with jungkook." she reminded me.

I shrugged. "I think, this contract will end sooner."

I said that without looking at her. I can feel a little sting inside my chest. There's a part of me that doesn't want it to end.

But, we're cold to each other, we're not seeing each other. Maybe, that will help to easily let go of this contract.

I took my phone out and I unconsciously went to our messages. The last time I talked to him was when I canceled our dinner for Christmas.

I spent my Christmas with my friends, and like sieon said, he might be with her.

I sighed and excused myself. I went out of the dressing room and walk towards the side of the stage. BTS is about to start their performance, I can hear the crowd getting wild for them.

I put my arms across my chest and watched them. Him.

Should I talk to him after this? We should decide if we could end this, and tell it to our CEOs. I guess it's okay for the citizens, I guess he already gained his reputation, maybe people already forgot his scandal.

I smiled.

If we'll continue this, I'm afraid for myself. That I might fall harder, since I like him now. I'll be the one who will be hurt in the end if this continue.

"SinB!" a staff called me.

My thoughts were cut off and looked at the staff who called me. She gestured me to come to her side. I thought of shaking my head because the crowd will see me If I'll go to her side, but I did.

"you can sit there if you wanted to watch their performance." she said.

I shook my head this time. "It's okay, I'm not really planning to watch all of their performance." I rejected her offer. She just nodded and walked away when her co-staffs called her.

I just found myself smiling and enjoying their performance until it ended. I immediately walked inside the backstage to go tour dressing room when laughs and loud noises from men welcomed me.

They all stopped talking and looked at me before looking to jungkook who's drinking his water and acted like I am not here.

I forced a smile and bowed at them. I was about to walked pass by them when a huge hand caught my arm.

I flinched and felt my heart skipped a beat.

"I guess we have to go now." I heard RM said to his members.

I closed my eyes firmly and faced jungkook with a smile. He's just staring at me with his serious face, and finally lets go of my arm.

He drank his water again before putting it back.

"let's talk."

I almost shiver when I heard his cold voice.

"y-yeah. I.. want to.." I cleared my throat. "I want to talk to you about something too." I said with my eyes looking everywhere.