The Show Must Go On

20

"take care." 

I waved at umji before walking out of our practice room. I didn't eat breakfast so I'm going to the GS25 store near the building to buy my breakfast. 

Last night, I was so shock that my social media accounts got bombarded by the fans about what I said in that radio. I was just really into that situation that I put my heart on what I said. I thought I'm okay. But seeing him again, I remember the feeling of embarrassment with a mixture of pain. 

The issue of us breaking up brought up, if it is a mutual decision or one of us cheated. 

Even me. I don't don't have any idea why everyhting turned out like that.

I put my mask on while waking out of the building and walked for a few minutes to each the GS25 store. 

I heard whispers but I just ignored it. They're embarrass to reach me out. I started searching for a food to eat but I feel like I have no appetite to eat. I chose to take the bread and and a vitamin juice to fill in my empty stomach. 

I paid for it before in a high chair that faces the glass wall, where  you can see the people  walking outside. 

"We've been talking for so long now and I still don't have your number." 

I stopped opening my bread when I heard a conversation behind me. A girl and a boy were sitting there talking and eating. 

I sighed when I remember a familiar scenario. We talked here first. He asked for my number. This is the place where it all started. 

I closed my eyes firmly and shook my head. I sighed before finally eating my bread. I bite from it slowly while looking outside. 

Moving on was so hard, especially when you knew that he didn't love you. I assumed. I'm the who hurt myself because I expected, and hoped so high. 

When I was hospitalized, I'm searching for him, expecting that he would care for me, or atleast visit me, but that night I read a news that they're gone. They're on their way to New York.

"So, you're my son's girlfriend.." 

I middle aged woman sat on the chair beside my bed. I never expected someone to visit me that night but him. 

"ex, ma'am." I corrected her using my weak voice. 

She nodded. She put her fancy bag on her lap. She looked at me with no emotion in her eyes, her personality screams elegance. 

"I heard that you helped him to cover up his dating scandal by dating him." she started.  "I don't know if I should say thank you for helping my son, or should I say sorry because my son dragged you into this situation. But I guess, I'm sorry and thank you." she continued. 

I played with my hands that's on my lap and looked away. 

"He changed. I never saw him this happy and inspired."

I shook my head, trying not to believe what she's saying. Happy? He's faking all of it. He told me that straight on my face. 

"I know he liked sieon, but would you believe me if I say that he likes-no." she paused. "he loves you, sinb." 

I wiped the tears that escaped from my eyes. 

"he never did." I cried. 

"Lis-" 

"Please, I don't want to assume anymore. He told me what he really feels and that's the opposite of what you are saying." I cut her off.  "I guess this is better. I agreed to this contract and this was a mistake."