The Show Must Go On

17

"see you on the next Sundays?" 

I unbuckled my seatbelt and looked at him. He looked away and tapped his fingers on the wheel. He's been acting weird since he got that phone call. I don't want to pry since I'm not part of the conversation so I didn't ask. 

I nodded at him and opened the door to walk out. I walked towards the back seat where angkko is sleeping. I carried him into my arms and closed the door. 

"See you on the next Sundays." I whispered while looking at his car moving away from me. 

If there will be next Sundays. I sighed before walking inside the building. I put angkko to his cushion before washing my body and went to sleep. 

I woke up the next day feeling so light. I opened my phone usually as soon as I wake up to see if he sent me messages but there's none. I just shrugged. He said he would be busy for the next days, and I don't want to be clingy. I'm sure he will message me if he has time. 

I changed into a jogging pants and a thick clothes, as well as a hoodie. I want to jog around the area since I can't go to pilates studio today. 

Carrying a bottle of water and angkko's leash in my hand, I jogged around the area near our condo unit. I pulled angkko's leash when I'm gasping for air since he ran so fast. 

"Angkko, stop for a while." I said while chasing my breathe. I opened the bottle and drank water. 

"Wow, trying to live a healthy life?" 

I almost choke when someone pushed my shoulder, some of the water splashed on my jogging pants. 

I glared at moonbin who's now laughing, full of sweat. 

"Really? I'm seeing your face early in the morning?" I asked in a sarcastic way. "I guess I'm having a bad day, then." 

I put the cap of the bottle back. Moonbin kneeled in front of angkko and scratched his head. 

"why are you near our area?" I asked when I recovered while chasing my breathe. 

He chuckled a bit. "I didn't realize  I ran so far. I guess I'm into the music I am listening." he answered and stood up. 

He looked at me and avoided my eyes later on. 

"I'm sorry.." he suddenly muttered. 

It made my forehead creased. I don't know what he's sorry about. 

"In order to set myself free, is to be honest so I could also accept who am I to you." he continued. 

I laughed awkwardly. "What are you talking about?" 

He sighed and looked down.  "I'm sorry I crossed the line." 

My lips parted when I understand what he's saying. I stood in front of him like a stone, cannot move. It seems like my feet were rooted on the ground. 

I can't believe this is happening. I mean, I chose not to understand and believe what are the people has been telling me. 

"I shouldn't be sorry because I liked you. I am sorry because I should be you friend and hopelessly hoping that we could be more than this." he continued. 

"why are you saying me these?" 

He shook his head. "because you deserve to know. And I have to accept, and let go this feeling because we're better off as friends."