The Show Must Go On

15

"thank you everyone for coming!" 

I waved at everyone who came to my EVISU fan meeting before coming inside the van. I sighed heavily as I sat on the chair, my body is heavy and I just want to rest. I've been so busy for a week straight now. If it's not a dance cover, I would be in a recording studio to record ost. 

"you should rest." the manager told me and I just nod. "Bang PD is really sticking to his words, huh?" he continued.

My brows furrowed in confusion because of what he said. 

"what do you mean?" I asked. 

"You agreed to this set up with jungkook because you wanted to show your talent like doing dance covers and singing ost right? He's doing it. He's promoting you well, because you're doing your job too well." he said. 

I looked down to my shoes when I remembered the agreement. Yeah, I agreed to this because I want to promote what I can do, even outside my comfort zone. I almost forgot the set up between me and jungkook. That's this was just all a show. 

I looked outside the window as a bit my lower lip. I hugged myself while remembering how I got disgusted with this set up. And now, I almost forgot that I'm just a leading character, I forgot how to act instead, I'm doing it naturally. 

I remember how jungkook and I became so close in just a span of 2 months. I wonder if he's gestures towards me when we're together was his true self and not just for the show. The emotions in his eyes while he looked at me, was that real? 

And sieon. Jungkook likes her. I forgot. I'm so dumb. I mentally face palmed when all realizations rushed inside my head. Jungkook likes sieon so why the hell am I carried away with all the emotions he's showing me? The loving gestures. I'm doomed. 

"sinb, we're here." the manager tapped my shoulder so I woke up from my deep thoughts. 

He opened the door and I saw the lobby of our company. With heavy body, I forced myself to go out of the van and walked inside. My eyes roamed around to see if there are medias but they're out of my sight. 

The staffs greeted me and I forced a smile while bowing at them. We waited for the elevator to open before coming in. 

"this is your last schedule for today. You did a great job." our manager said before tapping my shoulder. 

The elevator opened on our floor and unconsciously  I walked to our dance practice room. My knees are weak, and I'm just forcing myself to reach the room. I changed into a comfortable clothes so I could move. 

"Bang PD wants you in
 his office."

I sighed. My heart is pounding so hard while I'm taking step to walk to his office just above us. 

I was over thinking things. What if, Bang PD will end contract from now on? This what I want right? I want my freedom back, right? 

I looked up to stop myself from tearing up for an unknown reason. I knocked three times before entering his office. He's reading some files and looked up when he felt my presence. 

"you called me, sir?" I tried not to stutter.

He gestured me to sit, so I did. He eyed me before leaning in his swivel chair. He removed his eyes glasses and played with his pen on the table. He's making me so nervous. 

"how are you?" he asked. 

My lips parted because of his question. So I came here just to answer this question? 

"I'm good, sir." I answered simply. 

He nodded and leaned his arms on the table again. 

"I can see that you and jungkook became so close. May I ask what's between you two?"