The Show Must Go On

24

"this has been, GFRIEND. Thank you so much." 

We all bowed to the audience before going off the stage. Finally we're done with our last schedule for tonight. Finally I can sleep. 

"oh, BTS will be coming back this May." I heard sowon said when she took her phone out. 

How many weeks since we last saw each other? I didn't notice. The days passed by, like seconds. 

It's been weeks or almost a month since we let go of each other. The hate I felt was gone, it was replaced by an empty space. I feel empty. 

I closed my eyes as I lean on my seat. I should focus on my career. He's right. I value my career so much until I felt something for him. I even agreed to that contract just to save my career, the company. And I end up falling for him, I valued him the most after that. 

Pain change people. Some changes for the better, some was change into something that couldn't fix. 

I realized that, changing them couldn't fix you. I broke myself to cover what's broken with him. 

We arrived at our unit at exactly 11 pm. I washed and change into comfortable clothes before lying on my bed. I felt my phone vibrated so I reached it from the table beside my bed. 

From : moonbin 
Drink? 

I rolled my eyes before typing No. I am not in the mood to drink, I don't want to drink. It tires me out. I checked my social media accounts and I saw a lot of edited tagged pictures. Some of them are from my old stories when we were still together. 

I looked so happy. 

I sighed before turning the light of my phone off. I put it back on my side table before staring at the ceiling again. 

It's hard for me to sleep lately. It's always been hard for me to sleep, but this time it's more harder. I got so frustrated, and I ended up listening to a song. 

Euphoria

That calms me. 

I don't know if it's the song or his voice. I feel so light and happy, until i doze off to sleep. 

I am moving on. I'm trying. Since day 1. It's my first time to love someone, and I didn't imagine that it could be this painful, and hard to forget. 

I knew the truth. I had my answers.yet I can't still move on. 

"sometimes it's all about the choices we take, maybe you're still fond of your memories, you can't let go of those so you end up being still into him." 

We were walking back to the hybe building because we just finished our lunch. Umji and I ate at the nearest restaurant after our practice. 

" I mean, you still love him so.. " 

I glared at umji before bowing at the staffs. My eyes turned into slits when I saw someone wearing a full black clothing, standing at the corner. He lowered down his cap so I wouldn't see his face. But he's slim and walks like a girl. 

" Who's that?" umji asked. 

I just shrugged and pressed the arrow up button of the elevator. An idea crept inside my mind but I chose to not think of it more. 

It's impossible. 

"our contract will end soon." umji sighed. 

Most if us were tired because of our job. We wanted a normal life, but when it comes to your passion, you will never get tired.