The Show Must Go On

18

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"the weather forecast said it will rain, sinb. Bring an umbrella with you."

I put my powder brush on my vanity before looming at sowon who's checking my things inside my bag. It's just a small bag with phone and wallet in it. 

"The forecast said there's a chance of rain, it won't." I answered and finally stood up from my vanity chair. 

"It's better to be prepared. You'll get sick. Tell jungkook be home before 12." she said and went out of my room. 

She didn't put an umbrella, I guess she agreed. I looked at the time in my phone, it's almost 3 pm. I guess I have to go. 

"where are you going?" umji asked when she saw me walking out. 

She's holding a paint brush in her hand. I bet her artistic side came out. 

"date." yuju was the one who answered and I just shrugged. I bent down to wear my shoes. 

"with whom? Jungkook?" umji asked again. Her face was serious, her brows even met up. 

I nodded and smiled. My hands were shaking because of excitement. 

"Of course, who would it be aside from jungkook?" yerin teased. 

Umji's head tilted to side thinking about something. She just shrugged and went inside his room after drinking a water. 

My manager let me borrow a car for tonight. I will be driving towards our favorite park. Im even humming a song while walking to the elevator. My smiled cannot be remove on my face. 

I played the car keys on my hand, until the elevator opened when it reached the basement. I went inside the driver's seat, put my bag on the seat beside me before starting the engine. 

I parked the car and decided to eat at the nearest restaurant. I'm skipping towards the bench where we always meet. He's still not here. 

My shoulders fell down, the overloading excitement inside got drained suddenly as I shivered from the cold that bites my skin, in the middle of the rain. Just like in the movie, usually it rains when there's a break up scene, the sky and your emotion come as one. 

"I never liked you, this is just a show right? Well, you know what? I got tired of pretending."

My chest hurt when he said those last word. Pretending. I forgot. We're just pretending all along, I lost, I fell for him. I thought all he's feelings and actions towards me was true, I forgot. We're just a lead actor and actress in this damn show. 

I fell so hard that I didn't even notice that he's not there waiting for me, catch me. He left me falling, until I fell hard on the concrete. 

"so, you're just pretending. All of those, weren't real." I muttured, pain and was eating me inside. It's making me weak.

I was fooled. I fell to his false actions, thinking and I siting that he feels the same way because.. 

He kissed me! What was that? He kissed me in a private room, that was show too? For what? For the teddy bears and dust inside my room? 

"you fell for it?" he asked, almost laughing at me."I thought you're smart. This relationship has been a lie so as my feelings!"

Thunder roars, rain started to pour, harder than before. Being emphatitic about my feelings

"you're lying…" I shook my head. I don't want to believe what he's saying.

It's all just inside my head right? Maybe I was dreaming? Maybe I'm still asleep?