Reflection {Calum Hood}

Chapter 20

"You guys are in some deep doo doo." Matt sternly spoke, his eyes glaring into the boys eyes.

They were all in his office, lined up in front of him, as if he was a drill sergeant. Luke tried to contain himself as he smirked, and Michael rolled his eyes while he punched Luke on the arm.

"Ow. I'm sorry he said doo doo alright, it was funny." Luke squirmed and was uncomfortable as Matt sighed and rubbed his forehead.

"Disappointment doesn't even begin to describe my feelings right now, ok boys? We need a huge comeback plan. I don't know what we're going to do or what we're going to need, but it has to be fast, you hear me?" Matt raised his eyebrows.

Ashton replied, "Yeah, we hear you loud and clear Matt."

"Good he replied. I hope none of this leads to Calum getting kicked out of the band ok? It was one little punch it should'nt be too drastic."

I steadily breathed hoping that wouldn't be the case.

"Now fix it." Matt pounded his fist into his own hand and slammed his office door shut.

"Shit. We're in a lot of trouble." Calum spoke.

"No duh, Calum! This is your fault!" I replied. "There are other ways of protecting me and avoiding certain situations! Violence is never the answer!" I yelled, my face beaming red as I began to feel hot.

Calum looked at me, his eyes beginning to brim with tears.

My heart started breaking, but I couldn't stop myself.

"I'm scared for you, ok?" I started to choke on my own words. "I've seen you lash out, but never against strangers. I've seen you be in rage and yell and that's been scary enough. But to see you get into a fight, is beyond frightening. I don't want to be in a relationship with someone that I'm afraid of. My throat started to hurt begging for me to release the tears and pain that I had bottled up. "I want to feel secure and safe, and you beating up another person does not make me feel that way. I've given you so many chances Calum, I don't know if I'm ready to give you another one.." I spoke, the words all escaping from my mouth as though they couldn't be stopped. My eyesight getting terribly blurry as burning, salty tears ran down my cheeks.

"Whoa whoa whoa, let's stop and think about this for a second. You guys aren't going to call it quits are you?" Michael asked. "Because Calum needs you; we all need you. Do you remember the way he was acting before?"

"Yes, I do, ok? But that doesn't change what he did now." I sighed wiping my mascara stained eyes. "Maybe this was a mistake, this was all a bad decision. It should'nt be up to me to fix Calum, he has to do that on his own. You guys are practically brothers you should have helped him."

"We tried to but-" Luke interrupted.

"No." I stopped him. "It was a mistake to fall for you Calum, it was a mistake to work for you guys, everything was a mistake, and I'm sorry."

"Madeline." Calum reached for my hand but I pulled it back. "No Calum, I'm tired of your bullshit. Emily was right, and all the other girls you ever dated were right when they said it. Every girl is a little toy for you, and when your bored of it, you want a new one." My crying began to stop, as the last couple tears ran down my pink tainted cheeks. "I'm just going to get in my car and leave. Maybe I'll just pretend that this never happened."

I picked up my bag and started to head for the front door.

"Madeline, please don't go. Please, stay. I need you now more than ever." I stopped walking and turned to face a teary-eyed Calum. "I'm lost without you. There is no one I can depend on except you." Calum persisted, wiping his eyes.

"Hey, there's still us!" Ashton whined and Michael hit him. "Shut up." Michael whispered.

Calum ignored them. "I need you, Madeline. Please, I'll change, I'll quit hanging out with girls and going to bars, anything, please. I've lost so many people, I can't lose you too."

I sighed, thinking of what to do, thinking of what was the right thing to do.

"Let's just take a break, ok Calum?" I asked. "I don't have the heart to break up with you and I don't want to make anything official, but we just need a rest to think things over, like a little break from seeing each other."

I turned to face the door and walked out, heading for my car. Leaving behind a broken-hearted Calum, and 3 of my best friends. I got in my car and started the engine. I didn't even bother to turn the radio on, I figured that it would play sad songs. After driving for a while I pulled up to the nearest grocery store and parked in the first available spot I saw. I got out of my car and locked it then turned to the grocery store doors and walked straight to the ice cream aisle.

"I never thought it would come to this, yet here I am." I said to myself as I grabbed the largest container of Cookies and Cream ice cream I could find. "Now I'm that girl who is healing her broken heart with a tub of ice cream." I carried it to the register, paid for it, and then walked out of the store.

I sat down in my car and put the tub of ice cream next to me in the passenger seat. All of a sudden my phone buzzed.

Calum: "When is this break going to be over?"

I sighed and tucked my hair behind my ear. I hope I can handle this.

I hope we can handle this.

....................................................................................................................................................................... Sorry I haven't updated in a while guys! So much is happening in their relationship agh! Do you think it was right for Maddie to take a break with Calum? Is anyone being over dramatic? Was Maddie right when she said that Calum needs to fix himself on his own? Leave your comments below, and stay tuned.