amnesia

new normal

"Are you ready to talk now?" Adonis ask as he sits down on the same fold out chair from four days ago.

Ana sniffles and remains silent looking away from him down at her pink nails. Adonis lets out a long sigh and shakes his head.
He had been patient with Ana trying to give her time to come around and talk to him on her own. But she wasn't budging, only making his patience grow thinner by the hour.

"Anastassia! Do you hear me talking to you?" He says raising his voice.

Ana looks up at him with red puffy eyes and nods slowly.

"Answer my question."

"No. Adonis I don't want to talk to you, I want you to leave me alone." Ana whispers.

"That's not an option Anastassia."

"How can you ask me a yes or no question then say no isn't an option? If that's the case you should've just started talking when you sat down." Ana respond smartly.

Adonis grips her up by her shirt bringing her closer to his face.

"I'm really trying to change Ana. But if you're gonna be a smartass I'll have to show you the old me again." Adonis speaks lowly. "Now let's talk."

He releases her shirt and she sits back on the twin sized bed Hood had brought down for her the night she arrived back.

"How are you feeling?" He ask.

"Are you serious?"

Adonis gives her a warning look and she sighs before answering his question.

"I'm as good as I can be considering my current situation Adonis."

"Good. I'm happy you're back home with me, I missed you so much while you were gone." He speaks honestly.

"What did you miss? Beating me? Raping me? Controlling me?" Ana ask while looking into his eyes.

Adonis raises his hand and pauses mid way in the air. He really was trying to change and not put his hands on Ana anymore but she was pushing his buttons.

Adonis clears his throat and sits back down. Silence fills the room as he rubs his hands together slowly and Ana looks out of the small window watching the raindrops hit the window gently. Minutes begin to tick by and neither of them speak, each too caught up in their own thoughts. Ana trying to decide how she was going to get away again, while Adonis was battling with opening up to her so she could better understand him and why he was the way he was.

Adonis rubs his chest nervously and speaks again.

"I really do love you Anastassia." He whispers. "I'm just really fucked up ma, I been through a lot. A lot of shit you probably don't even remember me telling you."

Ana looks back over at him as he continues to speak.

"I'm not tryna make excuses for the shit I've done to you. I wanna be better for you and our child."

"How can you say you wanna be better when the first thing you do when I'm back home is lock me in the basement?"

Adonis shrugs and looks away from Ana becoming annoyed with the conversation rather quickly since she wasn't responding the way he wanted her to.

"Maybe if you knew how to act I wouldn't have to do all of this now would I?"

"Maybe if you weren't an abusive asshole I wouldn't try to get away from you."

Adonis sends a hard slap across her face and Ana whimpers. She brings her hand up to the side of her face as the tears silently fall from her eyes. Adonis sighs roughly and puts his head in his hands, gripping his curls tightly as he tries to calm down to keep from hitting her again.