What just happened? (Completed)

Chapter 14. No one will notice.

*One week later*

Kaia's POV 

I can't go out of my room anytime my mother comes home so I'm always here. 

I haven't been able to talk to Louis, not because I can't but because I don't want to. I don't want to be a trouble in his life, it looks like he already has a lot of things on his plate so it's enough that Aiden told him I'm fine. 

That's all he needs to know. 

Well, I'm kind of fine, but he doesn't need details. 

"Mom is coming!" I heard Aiden say. And it's always like this, at this time, around 5pm she always comes home. 

Dad came into my room and brought me dinner, and anything else I would need. Thankfully I have a bathroom right here so I don't have to go out for that. 

"You can't keep living like this Kaia." He said as he set everything up for me. I can do it myself but he is the one that brings it to me in case I go down and mom comes earlier than usual. 

"Well it's better than being someone else's trouble that isn't my family." 

"I'm sure if you talked to Louis, everything could be cleared out." 

"Everything is cleared out dad. He is obviously going through something and has enough things going on his life." 

"He has been asking Aiden everyday for you." 

"Well at least he is fine, knowing that I am." 

"Are you?" He asks. I sigh as I looked down, because honestly, we all know that I am not. "We have to consider you going to your aunt's house. I think it is the best option if Louis can't take you in." 

I know why I don't want to go there and it's because I'm afraid of being alone. 

My dad gave me a kiss on the cheek and went out, locking my door so I wouldn't be able to go out and my mom wouldn't be able to come in. 

Taking out my computer, I entered twitter and scroll down through the tweets. I feel like Twitter is like that one app that you can just say anything you are thinking of. 

I'm sorry for whatever I've done wrong that now the world is taking it out on me. But please just let me have a normal life for once. 

Thankfully no one knows my twitter account, or at least no one that I know of in real life so I can literally tweet anything I want. 

Sighing and feeling bored already, I went to Netflix and saw for anything to watch but I was feeling so sad and so lonely. 

I decided to go to the bathroom, just because. Maybe I could see if I had like a mask I could put on to waste time. 

Instead of seeing a mask, I saw some scissors. 

Suddenly I heard screaming from downstairs and I wanted so bad to go down and see what was going on, but Aiden screamed from my door "DON'T COME OUT, WHATEVER HAPPENS DON'T COME OUT! WE WILL CALM HER DOWN!" 

I wanted to scream something back, anything, but no words came out of my mouth. 

I saw the scissors again and was tempted so much by them. I've seen some tweets about people cutting themselves and saying that it felt so good. 

Maybe I could try, I mean if I'm not the only one doing this then it's not bad. What if it actually helps me feel better? 

No one will know, I could cover the scars with make-up, or even put hoodies on, which isn't weird of me since I'm always wearing hoodies that cover up my wrists. 

The screaming calmed down and I could hear a door shutting loudly but then everything was quiet. I think they were able to put my mom to sleep somehow, or she passed out. 

"Everything is okay, I'm sorry about all the noise." Aiden said again, from behind the door. "Are you okay?" When he asked that, I had the scissors on my hand. 

"Yeah I'm fine." I'm not, but he doesn't need to know that. "Are you okay?" 

"Yeah. Do you want anything else from the kitchen?" 

"No, I'm good." 

I'm actually not even hungry anymore and I hadn't even eaten my food yet. 

"Okay, sleep tight." 

"You too." 

We both knew that neither of us where going to sleep now but we also weren't going to talk again for the rest of the night so we always say good night. 

When I heard his door closing, I knew that I was going to be left alone. 

Sitting down on the bathroom floor, looking at the scissors, doubting if I should do this. 

I've always been scared but at the same time, tempted to try this. 

If it will help me feel better, I'm gonna try. 

Slowly but firmly, I did it. 

It hurt at first, but then after doing it 5 times it just felt numb and somehow actually helped me release the pain I was feeling inside. 

Drops of blood were beginning to be seen in my wrists and I had to take some toilet paper to take off the blood, with some water in it. 

It feels better than I ever thought it would. 

Now I have to be very careful that no one notices it. Then they will know that I'm not actually okay, but I just don't want to be anyone's burden. And if at the end, I do go to my aunt's house than surely no one will notice. 

I wanted to do it more times, but I knew that I had to control myself, specially since this is my first time. 

Maybe tomorrow I can do it some more. 

And I have to pay close attention to the blood, because I don't want any accidents nor stains of blood on my bathroom floor. 

That would be very bad. 

I hope that no one will notice.