There Won't Be A Tomorrow (Niall Horan)

Chapter 21 'I LoveYou'

Chapter 21

*Jensyn's POV*

I looked around seeing only 6 shadows, my vision is a bit blurry.

"Jen thank god you're awake!" Liv hurried beside me. I turned to look at her but my head ached like hell. Why is the ground so hard these days?

"oww! Uh where's Niall" the first thing that came to my mind was him.

"he, he didn't take it too. I think he needs some time on his own, to understand" Liam's face when sadder as he talked. I feel so stupid for them to all know now... I don't want them to feel pity for me. I closed my eyes for a few seconds just clearing my mind.

"hello how are you all?" a smiley nurse came in.

"we're ok been better" Louis answered.

"so missy you can leave, not that we don't like you I'd just suggest you get out, hospitals aren't the best places"

I got up slowly just to make sure I won't fall again. The doctor gave me a sheet and then wrote something down.

"think about it, this treatment could save your life" he said out loud.

"I can't afford this, it's to much" I shook my head looking at the price. 

"but we can" Harry smiled looking at me.

"no! I don't want you guys to feel sorry! I don't want your charity" I left the room without looking at them I felt like if I accepted I'd be using them, I'm not that kind of person.

I got into a taxi slowly, because my feet felt weak but I managed to do it. I got out my phone and dialed Niall's number, I really need to talk to him.

"hello" his voice was weak

"Niall I really need to talk to you, where are you?"

"nowhere" he answered, I couldn't even hear him through the wind blowing. He's in a windy place hmm field? On a hill? River? Lake? Aha he could be at the lake. I told the cab driver where to drop me off and he drove away.

After almost 20 minutes of being in the car I finally got where I wanted to go. I walked slowly towards the dock, just seeing him there on the dock throwing rock at the lake with teary eyes broke my heart into a million pieces!

I sat next to him and looked ahead, he didn't even flinch his stare was fixed in two little birds.

"I love lakes" I said quietly, looking at him. He looked at me for one second then returned at the birds

"Niall?"

"Niall talk to me!"

"Niall I'm sorry" a tear when down my cheek

"how'd you find me?" he questioned still not even trying to look at me.

"magic" I smiled.

"how can you still smile!" his voice broke midway, he acted like he was the sick one.

"because I know I have someone like you in my life" I turned to him maybe he'll at least look at me.

"ya... But why didn't you tell me" he finally looked at me, he looked broken.

"because I knew you weren't going to act the same around me, and I was scared if you would take it bad and leave me."

He just nodded his head and looked into my eyes.

"I will never leave you" his mouth corners lifted into a little smile and he's arms wrapped around me.

"thank you, that means the whole wide world to me. I'm glad I have someone to make me feel save" I leaned my head on his shoulder and watched the sunset. He looked down at me and I looked up his eyes were so sad, I kissed his soft pink lips and looked at his eyes again.

"i..." started the sentence but I was scared.

"hmm?" he looked down at me, he kissed my cheek and rested his head on mine.

"I love you" butterflies filled my stomach. Yup this feeling is love and I finally realized it. Maybe I did fall in love from the start I just didn't want to let myself love him but now it just shows that I was scared for nothing.

"I love you more." he kissed my forehead and sat up, gave me a hand and hugged me tight again.

"c'mon cheer up, please for me!" I mumbled into his chest

"just for you, ok now how do we get home I took a taxi." he started to walk slowly, holding my hand tight like he didn't want to lose me.

"I took a taxi too..." I said looking at my watch it was going to be a long walk.

"well lets hit the road then!" he smiled, finally a smile out of him!

"can you sing to me please?" it felt so quiet and I just wanted to hear his beautiful voice.

"sure what would you like me to sing?"

"your part in Little Things please."

"You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you 

You'll never treat yourself right, darling, but I want you to. 

If I let you know I'm here for you 

Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you, oh."

"that was wonderful" I kissed his cheek quickly.

*** 

It took a long hour to get to Patry's house but it was worth it.

"bye have a good night and I love you ok! And I'm here for you anytime." he gave me a quick hug and started to walk away

"HEY NO GOODBYE KISS!" I ran after him and jumped in his arms.

"almost forgot!" he said quickly before smashing his lips to mine. His lips were pressed hard against mine, it seemed like he was scared or something scared to let me go. We pulled away at the same time, I wrapped my arms tight around him not wanting him to leave me.

"well i better be going before Liv and Patry send a search party after me goodnight! Love you too!" I peaked his lips one last time and ran back to the front door and opened it. Life is good at this point. I just need to make the money for that treatment.

But how...