There Won't Be A Tomorrow (Niall Horan)

Chapter 28 What if I Want to Die?

Chapter 28

*Jensyn's POV*

Today was such a amazing day, we almost finished the treehouse. Niall was passed out on my lap while the tv was on. It was 11 o'clock by now and the boys are all sleeping. I don't want to wake him up so he would take me back to Patry's. If only I could reach for my phone without waking him up. I could call Liv or Patry so they could pick me up.

"need any help?" a voice scared me.

"uh hey Harry, ya can you pass me my phone I need to call one of the girls so they'll pick me up" i guess they're not all sleeping.

"I can drive you if you want" he placed his hands in his pockets. I shook my head

"you don't have to, it's okay" I quickly said

"it's fine really c'mon!". I slowly got up and put a pillow under his head. Following Harry's shadow in the dark night almost not able to see anything. Finally getting to his car I opened the door and hopped in. The radio was playing softly in the background. It was silent until I noticed him starting to try saying something.

"erm- are you going to let us pay?" he said quietly not looking at me. I'm starting to think the only reason he offered was just to get me into letting them pay for the bone marrow transplant.

"ok do you guys have to bring it up every time I swear I'm so sick of it and the answer is still no." I harshly responded. He looked a bit mad.

"why?" he continued on the subject.

"because I don't want to owe you guys, I'm fine" i was getting madder. It's true if they pay it's like I'd owe my whole life to them and I don't what something bad to happen between us then they would be like ' ya we were the ones who saved her life now look its like she's a stranger' or something similar.

"so you would rather die? you don't it get it. If you accept not only you're doing this for yourself, for Niall too he loves you really much" his words were getting louder by every words he spoke. I stayed silent for a while, I'd be gone but Niall would still be here. I never thought of it like that.

"what if I want to die? Huh? You don't know what I've been through maybe I'm just sick of everything" even though only half of that it's true and not the first part.

"believe me you do not act like you're just waiting for your ending. Don't say that ever again" he spoke

"and who do you think you are?" thank god we're finally here.

"a friend who cares about his best friend and his girlfriend" i was about to run out but his tone was different this time.

"thanks Harry for dropping me off" I weakly smiled jumping out of the car.

"will you think about it" his widow rolled down.

"I don't know" didn't hesitate to look back. What's gotten into both of them. Unlocking the door quickly. Liv and Patry were watching a movie.

"hey girl! Wanna join us!" Liv patted the sit next to her. My head shook slowly. I went to my room. Jumped straight into my bed, looking up at the blank ceiling. I cannot live a minute without people snapping at me or reminded me that I'm sick, to be honest I'm getting so annoyed by it. I decided to call my mom. I have no idea what time it is there but I don't care.

"hello?" her voice rang through the phone. I took a long sight trying blink away the tears.

"mom I can't do this anymore" my voice shaking.

"what's wrong honey, is anything wrong with you and Niall?" her voice read concern.

"cancer that's what's wrong, everyone wants to pay for my transplant I told you about it earlier, but I don't want them I don't want to feel like I owe them." I took a deep and shaky breath "Harry snapped at me earlier in the car, Niall keeps bringing it up, I'm so sick of it I don't know what to do anymore"

"maybe they really care about you" she said

"I know" I quietly said.

"maybe you just need some time off from all of that" she suggested but what was she trying to say.

"what do you mean?"...