There Won't Be A Tomorrow (Niall Horan)

Chapter 29 Leaving Him Behind

Chapter 29

*Jensyn's POV*

I tossed and turned all night. It's morning now and I'm dead tired. Thoughts of what mom said kept coming back. Should I really leave. My hand went through my hair for the hundredth time. I took out my laptop and looked at flights. I really cannot believe I'm actually doing this. I took in a shaky breath and pressed the mouse. I bought the tickets... I looked surprised at what I just did. How am I going to tell Niall, when's Liv going to come back I'm not suppose to leave until the end of the month that's when our flight back takes off. Laying down closing my eyes shut.. Please let it just be a nightmare. I went into the kitchen. The dog jumping around, Liv watching tv and Patry outside.

"hey Liv, can you come outside for a second?" she only nodded and followed me. I sat down on the cement beside the pool looking at both of them.

"guys I'm going back home..." I slowly said. They both looked at me with surprised faces.

"you can't! I'm going to miss you! What about Niall!" Patry sat down next to me

"I'm going to miss you too but I can't do it. They all are nagging about the transplant that they want to pay. Niall keeps reminding me everytime! I just want to have fun and forget, I can't do that though because every time I try to be happy one has to bring it up! I just don't know what to do anymore!" I covered my face with my hands "how am I suppose to tell him that I'm just going to leave tonight." Liv came and sat down too. They both were speechless, the sadness showed in their expression. This whole time they were the only ones that didn't say anything, when we were together we just had a blast. I love Niall I love him with all my heart but I shouldn't if I don't get enough money I might not be here.

"I'll drive you to their house and you two can chat just tell him how you feel" Patry said getting up, I nodded my head and followed after. "Liv and I will be at the mall tell us when you're done maybe we can do some shopping"

I was hoping the car ride would be long, but it wasn't it went by fast I was at his door but voices stopped me from ringing. The door was slightly open.

"did you talk to her!?" Niall nearly shouted.

"yeah! She's being so stubborn, she won't owe us a pound. We're just here to help!" Harry's voice was loud I could hear it clearly

Niall sat down angry. "doesn't she get how much I care about her! Why is she being stupid"

Tears were rolling fast down my cheeks. I walked right in.

"YOU DON'T GET IT DO YOU!? I don't want your money I can take care of myself! Niall I love you but I can't do it anymore, do you how much it pains me everytime you remind me, everytime I feel like I should die right there! I'm leaving tonight I'm going back home" by now I was violently sobbing, hot tears streaming down my face. He walked closer with tears forming in his. "and next time close your door if you're planing on calling me stubborn and stupid" I walked right now didn't know where I would go. He ran behind me.

"I'm so sorry, words can explain how much I care for you. I didn't know how bad it made you feel. Please don't leave I love you please" he grabbed my hand. "wow is this the tattoo you got" his hand when a cross the inside of my wrist. "it-it's beautiful" it's a J and N in a infinity sign. I nodded lowering my head down.

I took a deep shaky breath looking into his eyes. "I'll be at the airport if you come I won't leave but if not I'll be on my home" I took out my phone texting Patry to come pick me up. He nodded his head then gave me the longest kiss. "I love you Niall but I just can't stay. I wish I could see one more time before I'll be gone" his head shuck violently at my words

"don't say that!" his forehead was against mine

"I don't know what I'm doing! I feel helpless" I cried quietly. My mind was blank and filled with confusion. Party's car pulled beside. I took one last glance at the best thing to ever happen to me. Hopefully there's a miracle and I could be with him again, we drove away my eyes never leaving him. His figure becoming smaller and smaller.

**

I said my good-byes to Patry and Liv would be coming back in a week or so. I texted the guys good-bye and that it was such a joy meeting them and becoming friends. Niall and I's scene was kind of a good-bye. Part of me doesn't want him to appear at the airport but the part that wants him to come is bigger and it's growing by the minute. The taxi pulled right in front of the airport. I grabbed my baggage and headed inside. 45 minutes until my flight leaves. I walked back and forth in one spot looking at the ticking clock. My head started aching, my heart too. If only that dog would've just stayed in his place if only I would've went straight to grandmas and helped her maybe she wouldn't have passed away. More 'if only' s filled my find. I wouldn't be here but I wouldn't have experienced all the things. To actually be loved by someone other then my parents and best friend, to feel special and have someone protect you. Minutes passed faster and faster and I turned everytime someone walked through the door. Inside I wanted Niall to come so badly just stay and cry in his strong arms. But each time a person walked in and it wasn't Niall my heart dropped to the floor. The intercom was loud saying people can start boarding the plane. I wasn't, I was going to wait here until my Irish guy would show. Minutes pass and nothing. I finally gave up he isn't going to show up. I took my bag and walked towards the lady at the entrance on the plane, I gave her my ticket and walked halfway in.

"JENSYN!" a voice yelled so loud people inside the plane heard it.