Idols Love At First Sight

Struggling

⚠️MIGHT BE TRIGGERING TALKS ABOUT ABUSE,RAPE AND SELF HARM⚠️

Y/n POV
When I started to calm down, I laid my head on Niki's shoulder while taking deep breathes. Niki looked at me with concerned eyes, I knew he wanted me to tell him about what's going on but I don't want him to worry about me to much just because of my mental issues.
"Y/n baby can you tell me what happened?" Niki asked in a soft soothing voice.
I immediately shook my head while all my trama came in my head, having flashbacks I didn't even notice I was clinging on to his shirt.
"Can you atleast tell me why baby?" He asked in another soft and soothing voice.
"Because I don't want you to worry about me too much or treating me differently" I said in a shaky voice.
"Princess, I won't do any of those things and the only thing I wanna do right now is listen to you explaining what is going on and what happened" he said in a serious voice.
I took a deep breath and decided to tell him my story, "well it happened back when I was little"

~flash back~
I was playing with my dolls, I found out almost a month ago my daddy died and I'm still sad about it but I know he's in a better place. I all of a sudden, heard my mommy storm into my room
"What's wrong mommy?" "It's your fault your father died" she yelled while throwing a beer bottle at my feet. I immediately stood up, frightened, "you deserve a punishment! Boy come in here" she commanded and I saw a guy with baggy clothes and reeks of drugs come into the room. "You get an hour ok" my mommy said as she got handed some money "ok" the guy said while smirking at me. Mommy existed the room and I was left alone with that man, "why don't you come sit on my lap babygirl?" The guy asked while smirking at me. I walked up to him and he put me on one of his thighs and then he started to touch me everywhere on my body, he put me down on the bed and then took his pants off "get on your knees babygirl" I obeyed because I knew if I didn't, I would get beat. Then pulled down my pants and I believe you know what happens next. It started to continue constantly until I was a trainee.

~end of flash back~
I started to cry again on Niki's shoulder while he sat there in shock

Niki POV
As my girl was telling me about her past, I couldn't believe she/he went through all of that at such a young age. It really showed how strong she/he was no matter what and I'm so proud of her/him. Next thing I knew, she/he was crying on my shoulder,clinging onto my sweater and I could feel the hot tears wet my shirt. I kissed her/him on her/his head and I felt her/him snuggling into my neck

Y/n POV
Niki kissed my head and I snuggled into his neck, I felt safe and warm in his arms. After telling him my story, I felt some weight on my shoulders go away. It's been a few more minutes and as I was about to fall asleep.
"HOW IS SHE/HE"
I didn't look up because I already knew who it is. The one and only Jake and Jay.
I pretended I was asleep because I had no energy from crying so I just stayed their shivering and snuggling into Niki. "Hey Jake pass me my jacket in my bag" I then felt immediate warmth around me and I loved it mostly because it smelled like Niki and I wasn't complaining.
I felt myself getting picked up and placed on our couch, Niki was about to go but I grabbed his hand because I didn't want home to leave, he made me feel safe, I need him right now and always will. "Don't go please" I said but my voice cracked.

Niki POV
I knew she was asleep and I was about to fall asleep to but then of course, Jake and Jay had to ruin it. I notice that y/n was shivering so I asked Jake if he could pass my jacket that was in my bag so I could it on y/n. I decided to carry her/him to the couch to be more comfortable and as I was about to leave, something grabbed onto my hand and I heard y/n said "Don't go please" and her voice cracked. Of course I couldn't say no so I moved some cushions to give me space and hugged y/n around her/his waist with her/his back against my chest.

Y/n POV
Niki came up behind me and put his arm around my waist but I remembered that we have a basket full of blankets so I grabbed a fluffy one and put it on me and Niki. I felt uncomfortable so I turned around and snuggled into Niki's chest. This felt right, I never wanna leave this position, I felt safe for once