Sarang's POV
Working in my dad's company has been great. I guess this is what my therapist told me that I will be okay when I'm ready to be okay.
She also told me that maybe I just need to go back here to heal. She's not wrong. It actually made sense.
It's not my fault that Taehyung did that to me. I don't need reason to know at all. I am okay, if he doesn't believe in me then it's completely fine.
What's important is that, the problem was that I treated myself so badly that I had existential crisis. I blamed myself for what happened and drink everyday. And when I got hospitalized for alcohol intoxication, I blamed myself again for doing that to myself.
I had so much hate on myself that time, and my therapist was a Korean too. She helped me so much.
I am eating healthy and working out with my unni. We've been busy with work for 2 straight weeks now. As for the boys, I see them from time to time.
My phone rang and it's a call from Kim Hanbin.
We talked for awhile.
Yes, we know each other. He has been my friend ever since in Kindergarten. He is the only I've been keeping in touch with since I left.
We've been hanging out too for the last 2 weeks. And then a news was published by dispatch.
I hate my life.
" B.I, the former member of iKon, was seen hanging around multiple times with the daughter of Big Hit's CEO "
What the fuck???
Well I can't be bothered tho. Plus, were not doing anything wrong. I chuckled and closed the article.
TAEHYUNG's POV
I saw that article right before my therapy session.
" I don't get it why I am so annoyed " I said
" That guy is back in the picture again. He's not good for Sarang. There is the reason why he was a already a former member of their group " I said
" Why are you mad? Can you tell me why? You're not her boyfriend anymore right? "
Now why is this woman being straightforward with me?
" Right "
" So did you do it? Have you assessed your relationships with your friends? "
" Yes "
And I told the woman my realizations.
Admitting is hard. Realizing that maybe Sowon really made me believe in her or maybe made it worse instead of helping me fix my relationship that time. Or that maybe she shove some ideas on my brain to completely hate Sarang. But I just, I can't blame her completely.
" So how can we stop that? " She asked me
" I guess I have to avoid them. To completely heal "
" Do you think that's what is right for you? Okay. Do it. But do you think theres another way? Just in case avoiding them won't work? "
" i-i dont know "
" Mr, forgive yourself. Then everything else comes after "
I told her that I can't do that to Sowon. She stayed with me through my tough times. Even though I'm not sure about her being a friend to me anymore. I just can't blame her. Because it's not completely her fault. I let her do that to me. And I hurt Sarang so much.
It's just myself now. I have to fix this. So I'd be better.
I finished the session, and it's still 9 days before we went to the forrest and film. I haven't seen Sarang.
