Sarang's POV
We walked to my father's office.
Just earlier, I figured I can be casual with Taehyung. Even if he used up all of my grace before, it's okay. I am completely fine. As long as he doesn't talk to me about that anymore.
I missed them so much. Especially how we used to. But I just can't slip back right into it right now. We are all grown up, we matured.
What I am scared of now is how easily Taehyung can go back in my life now. How easily he can control my feelings and play with it, AGAIN.
" But no, Sarang you are strong. You know your limits now, and know that you can't experience that same pain again. You know better. You are better. Right? "
I thought to myself while walking.
" You are not here to fix things. You are here just because your father needs you. Your family needs you. You wont go back to that abyss anymore, even if you choose to stay here after 5 months, you know that you are done. "
" There is no reason to hate Korea at all. This is your home. Don't let Taehyung take that also away from you. Sarang, you must love yourself. That is why your name is Sarang right? Right. Yeah, you miss him, but you can miss him and still not want it back. "
My thoughts were cut off when I felt a cold hand hanging on the back of my neck. It was Namjoon
" You are lost in your thoughts " He said and they all walked behind us.
I kept quiet. I should be over it by now. So I composed myself and did my best to be mentally present as possible.
" He also changed. I know for sure. He got quiet and more reserved now. It can be seen through their interviews. And everyone noticed it. He's not his old self anymore, the fun boy I loved when I was younger. The funny and out of the box guy with his boxy fucking smile. He changed. He looks deep now. And his black hair really suits him. He changed. And so was I. "
" Fuck you Sarang, stop thinking about it. MIND OVER MATTER!!! "
I said to myself to get back to reality.
I grabbed my phone from my pocket as we entered my Dad's office. I sat to the couch waiting for the food. I scrolled through instagram.
Yoongi sat beside me and said
" Do you want to have dinner with me and Seol Hee tonight? "
I just can't say no to him. I respect him so much as my oppa. He's been kind to me and I grew up with him. He is a real brother to me.
" Where? " I simply said
" Just somewhere. Or in my house "
" Oh okay, just let me know what time " I said
" Fine "
We all started eating. I really don't feel like it but my Dad looks so happy. Ughhh.
We finished eating and we are called out to a conference room, to discuss some business.
" So you'll be filming for a whole week. It's called BTS in the SOOP "
Further topics are discussed and we will filmed it the next month. We certainly have to be there.
Fuck this shit. I thought to myself. What the hell did I get myself in to?
" I mean, are you okay to hang out to hannam tonight? " Yoongi suddenly said again
" Yeah. Wherever and whatever "
" Nice " He closed his eyes
Seol Hee and I went home to change our clothes. I wore a black track short and a white tee with my slides only. Seol hee is wearing her everyday clothes too.
