Taehyung's POV
2 Days before our variety show taping
In therapy
" So how are you Mr Taehyung? "
" I've been realizing things. Like every one was right, Sowon and Sarang. Sarang is the one who was really hurt in this situation. "
She just nodded her head
" Sarang. Even just saying her name makes me guilty. "
" And why is that? "
" Because maybe, she blamed herself those times? I said some things that I was so sure would hurt her. And she stayed for me even if I treated her so badly because she loved me, she's not manipulating me "
She nodded again
" Well, she also said that, when she's in abroad, she became alcoholic and got over it because she went to therapy "
The therapist straightened her face
" Now, I just. Feel like shit. I think I owe her an apology but how do I that? What if she doesn't want it anymore? Would it make a difference now ? Its been so long. What if she's fine even if I don't gave her the apology? What if Sowon already talked to her? "
" Mr, calm down " She said
" And what if my apology just reminds her how bad I treated her? what if it came back to her like shit? What do I do?!! " I almost panicked
" Just say sorry. How sure are you that she doesn't need that anymore? Of course it would make a difference! Even if you say sorry after decades, it would still matter. And what does that Sowon had to do with this? Does she matter? Is she part of the relationship? She doesn't even know Sarang like you do so why did you let her decide for your relationship? And if she became alcoholic again because I haven't done a good job treating her back then. And that's not the reason why she went to therapy. She was so guilty for treating herself so bad and blaming herself that she drinks the pain away. She went to therapy because she can't even look at herself in the mirror. Up to the last minute, Mr. Kim Taehyung, she did not blame you. She blamed herself. And I help her to forgave herself and she did that already. You both need that. And then say you're sorry " She blurted out a whole fucking book
" You know her?! " I was shocked
" I was requested. Her father made me go there to help her. Because she was so hopeless back then "
I held my head in frustration
" She's okay now. Trust me she is. And I know every reason why she must hate you. But you are my client too and so I helped you. I really hope I helped you even if in some ways "
" You did. Ma'am. You helped me so much. Thank you so much for bearing with me "
" It is my job after all "
" Ma'am? "
" Yes? "
" Do you think she'd really want an apology? "
" I cannot speak for her behalf. But you need to, to help yourself. One at a time Mr. Taehyung "
I sighed
" And you have to confront the other persons involved too. Because if you don't voice it out, it will consume you "
" Thank you " I hugged her
