Sophie walker [Book 1] ✔️

Twenty Six

 The chapter talks about death a lot it's been rewritten I was dealing with some loss as well when I first wrote it so yeah the quality, the emotions that are felt after the death of a loved one are all there. At least what I felt. 

Ashton pov

I lean on the scrub room wall and just sit down. I couldn't breathe, I felt guilty he taught me everything he trusted me and I couldn't even save his life. The man who helped me through the toughest times in my life was now gone, the man who was like a father figure to me was now gone, he was gone and I couldn't do anything about it. I was crying. I couldn't stop it. I couldn't do this. No more it's just too hard everyone dying.  Just then, Duke came in. 

"Ashton, what happened are you okay?" Duke asked. 

"He died, Duke, He died I couldn't save him he died." I said repeating the words he died. My breathing was still bad but I didn't care. 

"Ashton, first of all, breathe you need to calm down it's okay it wasn't your fault just breathe it'll be okay." He said. When I said that he died I could see Duke's expression change he was taken aback but he quickly got himself composed to calm me down. 

"Ashton breathe please." He said again. I started focusing on my breathing and soon enough, it was okay. I was not sure what I felt but my breathing was okay.

"Good job, I'm proud of you. Now come on, wash your face and we'll talk about it." 

"I need to call his daughter, Tess." I said. 

"Focus on yourself right now Ashton, I'll tell one of the residents to call her from his file just come with me." 

"I need to tell her, she needs to hear it from me." I said. 

"She will, I'll tell you when she's here, now come with me right now." He said. I nodded. 

We walked over to the restrooms. I went over to the sinks and looked at myself my hair was a mess, I was a mess. I washed my face and fixed my hair a bit. Duke came in and just stood there not saying anything. 

"Now, Do you want to talk Ashton?" He asked. 

"I don't know, let's just go to my office." I said. 

"Okay, Also I told Neil to call Tess. She'll be here in  a few hours.He said. 

"Don't tell her over the phone." I said. 

"I told him that." Duke said. We walked over to my office. We sat on the exam table itself. I didn't have anymore appointments. 

"I couldn't save him Duke, I failed himhe did everything for me and I just let him die." I said crying yet again. 

"Ashton, you did everything you could you did your best, I'm sure he's proud of you for that. The accident he was in was bad. I saw his chart. It was impossible to save him Ash." He said.

"But I could've saved him somehow, but I didn't." I said still crying I'm sure I was stuttering but he understood. 

"You couldn't Ashton, he was too far gone." He said. I nodded. I didn't want to talk anymore. He understood and sat there with me. My mind was filled with how I couldn't save him. Soon Duke snapped his fingers in front of my face taking me out of thinking. 

"Tess's here." He said. I nodded. 

I took a deep breath and stepped off the exam table. I splashed some water on my face and wiped my face. 

"Can you do this?" Duke asked. 

"I have to. She needs to hear this from me." I said. I quickly walked over to the waiting room. She was sitting there her leg bouncing worried about her dad. I took a deep breath again and walked over to her.