Tomboy

#10. Revelations

So I had this dillema where I burnt my hand like reaallllyyyy badly and was like totally crippled for two days and I thought my finger was going to fall off so im so sorry for not updating like usual. But hey! I was about to die!

Excuses, excuses.

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Axel

After Lyric and I's conversation, I was happy. Yeah it wasn't exactly a conversation but I talked to her. She acknowledged my presence and replied. She got up and away from Sam to talk to me. Me. Even though she asked for his consent she still talked to me.

But I was starting to get worried because it had been two days since our conversation and she hasn't been to school once. I know she's around because her motorbike is usually always at home, but I never see her at school anymore. Why wouldn't she come? Was it because of me?

"Where is she? What did you do to her?" He exclaimed, spitting in my face.
"I was just about to say the same thing!" I retorted. He was getting on my nerves, his pure presence his innocence. His closeness to her. It bothered me.

"Don't you dare put the blame on me." He seethed quietly, nudging me in the right shoulder with his fire finger.

"You were the last one with her!" I shouted, pushing him back. We were attracting a lot of attention and I could by the way his eyes darted around he didn't like it.

"You're a lost cause." He told me. "Get over yourself, Carter. She doesn't want you."

"Like she wants-" I started instantly, but before I could finish I was cut off by a figure that walked past, clad in tights and a grey Adidas jumper with white vans.

I turned from Sam toward her, stopping in my tracks when his words played over in my head, 'You're a lost cause. Get over yourself, Carter. She doesn't want you.' I heaved a sigh. Nothing is more painful than realising that you don't mean anything to the person that means the everything to you, and right this moment her well being meant everything to me. She meant everything to me. She was all i ever thought about. Everything I ever wanted. Everything anybody else wasn't. Everything I never noticed before. But then again, the moment you feel like you have to prove your worth to someone is the moment you walk away and so that's what I did. I walked away.

Like a total wuss. I walked away and never glanced back at the crowd of people that watched me as I exited the school in hopes of not having to face her. Or Sam for that matter.

I had no idea that when we first met, she would mean so much to me. In my eyes she was a freak with a freak best friend. Dry and a complete uptight nugget, but unfortunately puberty did well, unfortunately I was hormonal teenager who had the hots for a Reeky.

I thought back to when we first met, how she was wearing shorts and a big Adidas jumper. The exact same one she was wearing today, only it didn't fit her as well.

"Hi, I'm Lyric." She smiled, waving at me from her bedroom window.

"Cool story." I smirked, "Now go tell someone who cares."

"Well good to know I'm next door to an egotistical jerk." She scowled, flipping me off. She was ten.

"No, it's sad to know I've got to tell my friends an ugly troll is now my new neighbour."

I don't know why I was so mean, I won't lie she was pretty but I was a 'cool' kid. I couldn't like or play with girls. Girls were germs back then, they were enemies to the male population.

Did you ever do this?think back on all the time you've had with someone and you just replay it over and over in your head and you look for those first signs of a chance if not chances?