Eternally Ours

35- One Extraordinary Person

One whole month. One whole month since I have had a conversation with Jack, one whole month since he has looked me in the eyes and one whole month since I haven't been able to talk to one of my best friends. I know full well it has to do with the argument we had in Harry's bedroom, but it's not just me he has been avoiding but everyone. He ignored Harry and Freddie's relentless messages, phone calls and even when they knock on his door. I know that they have seen him in their relentless attempts to try and get him to see sense but they won't talk about that so I know that when they saw him it mustn't have been good. I spoke to his Mum and she just seems worried, she told us that he is never in, always out till the early hours and comes stumbling in drunk by the time he gets home. Well, Joanne told all this too my Mum but me and Freddie couldn't help but sit on the stairs and listen to their conversation.

She sobbed her eyes out to my Mum and when she mentioned that it was the same as the time before, Freddie came with me upstairs as he went into detail about what had happened not to long before I first met Jack. Freddie told me all about Shane and the type of people they hang around with. He told me that "Jack had met him one night at a party and at first he didn't seem too keen on him but then something happened, I'm not entirely sure what but me and Harry thought that it was something to do with his Dad. Then he was always with Shane. Jack was forgetting to turn up to things, drinking and smoking all the time, using girls," I cringed at that part but Freddie seemed to distracted to notice, "He was just a completely different Jack, but when his Mum decided to move to South London it was probably the best choice for him. It was weird but it was like he finally woke up and became our Jack again. The night we first met you was the first time we had been out and Jack had seemed like himself. But now this just feels like history repeating itself."

I have quickly become used to riding to college on the bus again, Jack rarely makes an appearance at college and if he does he doesn't turn up to English anymore and I know he has missed a lot of his football practices. His coach told me that his trial was pushed back to a later date, he only told me this because he was asking me why Jack hadn't turned up to the last few  practices. I've managed to avoid Sean at college leaving through the back door and sitting in the library at lunch, but I can't even begin to explain how much I have missed sitting with Jack at lunch or him trying to mess with me during English, or the way he pretends I'm not completely awful at sports in PE.

I have been spending copious amounts of time with people in attempts to get my mind off it, Annie and I have been staying round each others houses a lot. We even stayed a night round my Nan and Grandads. It still feels weird calling them that but I did one day to see how I felt but the look on her face when I did made me realise that it didn't feel completely uncomfortable. I have been spending a lot of time with them recently and Jesse. With Jesse it's finally starting to feel more like a father daughter relationship, although we haven't quite got to the stage of actually addressing him as such. I tried saying the word but it just felt foreign coming from my mouth, I'm sure one day I will change my mind. Wake up one day and that's all he will be known as is Dad, but that day hasn't come yet. My mum has been working a lot but I know she has been trying to make time to spend with me, same with Freddie and Harry, I know they know I don't like being alone because when I'm alone I spend the majority of my time calling Jack or sending him the thousandth unanswered message. I've been seeing Luke a lot too, always going out places either going on walks or some other bookshop he found. But know matter who I spend time with my worry for Jack is still firmly planted in the back of my mind. Guilty as charged sometimes when Luke is talking about school work I just wish that is was Jack sitting in front of me teasing me for obsessing about something or other.

I pull out my phone and send yet another text to Jack that he will no doubt ignore, I contemplated a few timex to text in saying it was urgent and I need help ASAP but we all know the story of the boy who cried wolf. Plus when he found out I was lying he would be even more pissed at me that he already is. Just as I put my phone back safely in my bag I feel the small drops of rain on the top of my head, I quickly pick up the pace to get to Annie's house. I should have took the lift Jesse offered to give me, we just wrapped up a driving lesson in his super expensive car, as if I'm not nervous enough to be driving but the fact I could total a car that I think is more expensive than my house doesn't help.