Eternally Ours

40- Are You On Drugs?

After a few more words we finally got Harry to promise not to directly tell Jesse about Jack and I. But he is not happy about the idea at all, but after something Annie tells him he says he's not getting involved again unless he has too. Which translates to, if this ends badly Harry is going to blow a casket. Jack left to go home so Harry is taking me and Freddie back to his place, we already dropped Annie off at her house so the rest of the short drive to Harry's is relatively quiet, the whole car is filled with a nervous energy and it feels suffocating. Even Freddie is sitting in the front seat uncomfortably.

We pull into the underground garage, Harry parking in his designated space and I spot my BMW a few cars down, next to what I presume is Harry's red Audi R8.

"Freddie do you mind if I speak to Emily alone?" Harry's low voice asks Freddie and I feel the nervous feeling pricking through me know that I am going to be given a lecture.

"Erm sure, I guess I'll go make conversation with Gregory" Freddie quickly clambers out the car giving me a swift good luck look and head through the doors that lead to the lift. Harry turns around in his chair and he looks just as nervous as I am. No not nervous, he's worried? It's hard to read him sometimes- he's not like Freddie who you can read like a book, each emotion obviously written on his face. But Harry, is harder, more closed off.

"You obviously know how I feel about you and Jack." He runs his frustrated through his hair, and I know he's thinking of the best way to get this across to me. "He's my best friend and I love him, but he's not someone you should be with Emily. You haven't seen the way he is with girls, I'll spare you the gory details but it doesn't end with the girls very happy. And I don't want you to be one of those girls, and I know he has good intentions, but Jack can't do commitment. It's not in his nature," He runs his hand through his hair another time, his voice still remaining calm as he continues. "And I don't want you to be collateral damage when this all goes to shit." Harry's faced looks pained, and I feel an unbelievable amount of guilt wash over and consume me as I sink further into the back seat, praying that it just swallows me whole.

I feel like we are sitting here for an eternity as his eyes stare down into mine, and once again I am rendered speechless, lost for words, lost for what I could possibly say to him to make him change his mind. Make his see that I'm willing to take that chance because Jack promised me this time is different.

"Harry," I manage to get out quietly and his eyes are still holding mine and I play with my fingers nervously in my lap. "I know your worried, but Jack promised this time is different, that it's not the same as the other girls." I try to reason but he just shakes his head and is looking at me again and I feel about two foot tall.

"What?" He scoffs, "I'm supposed to sit back and let Jack try this little experiment out on somebody in my family?" He asks.

"I'm not asking for your permission," I tell him meaning to sound authoritative and that I was standing my ground but it comes out as more of a squeak. And Harry looks shocked.

"You don't need permission Em, I'm just telling you that I'm worried this will go horribly wrong, that this is going to end in tears." He looks back to me and his eyes soften, "Fine, I won't say anymore on the matter, I'll drop it. But I meant every word," Harry concedes, and I know that there was a warning to what he had said. If Jack's own best friend doesn't believe him capable of being in a relationship then how can he be so sure, my subconscious tells me. But I decide not to listen to her, and decide to focus on the warm feeling I had when I woke up in bed next to Jack.

When we get up to the lobby Freddie has Gregory laughing but as soon as he see's Harry and me he regains his composure, straightening up and his smile remaining in place.