Eternally Ours

44- Don't Bring Him Into This

"Annie!" I shout just before she grabs ahold of my hand and dragging me back into the living room a joyful giggle coming from her mouth as she pushes me to sit back down on the sofa.

"Em please let me finish, your eyebrows are nearly done," she says as she grabs ahold of my face tweezers in hand once again as she begins the horrendous torcher of my face.

Her mum looks up from her book she is reading, "Emily darling feel free to tell my daughter no, it's not an easy task I know," she laughs at her stubborn daughter.

"Mum Emily asked me to do it and then she also asked me to persist even if it hurts so all I'm doing is fulfilling her wishes, plus I'm just about...... done! There you can stop moaning!" She places the tweezers back on the table as she sits down next to me.

It's been two weeks since the awkward situation with Jack, the thought of me throwing myself at him and being rejected kept going around and around in my head- we haven't properly spoken about it I shoot him down every time it comes up rushing off somewhere before we can talk about it to much. But I already said he could borrow a book for our independent reading project for English so I'm meeting him at my Dad's in an hour. I already know it's going to feel like the shortest hour of my life considering I am absolutely dreading it. I know I shouldn't because Jack would never make me feel awkward about it- but I will make myself feel awkward about it.

"Annie, Mrs Adeyemi, I'm going to have to love you and leave you as my English project awaits," and an awkward encounter with Jack. 

"Emily it's Ene, please- you're round here enough to call me that," She tells me, standing up from her chair and kissing Annie on the head and then me. In these very short few months I have become very fond of the Adeyemi household. She swiftly exits the living room and her feet retreat towards the kitchen. 

"She never let Georgia call her that," Annie laughs as she walks me towards the door, "Just talk to Jack about it, I promise it's just your own mind making this a problem when I'm sure it's not," She hugs me and I take off towards the train station- hopefully for one of the last times. My Nan booked me onto one of those advance placement driving tests and I feel ready but am nervous as hell for it- the final test is tomorrow and I just want to be able to pass and drive my beautiful car. Not that I would consider driving it to school, I would leave it there in the morning and it would be key'd by the time I started first period. 

The tube is not very busy- most people at school and work, I'm the only person in this carriage the low hum of the tube at the same rhythm as my thoughts pacing through my head. I am just worried that I will embarrass myself the same way I did the other night, it wasn't just the alcohol that made me want Jack in that way last night, because the next morning I felt exactly the same way, I still do now. I haven't spoken to my Mum about it,  we've both seem to be so busy recently, she's been working a lot more and been going out with her friend a lot in the evening and I have been busy with school work, my friends and Jack that we haven't seemed to have a moment just the two of us to talk about it. Freddie and Annie however have been a life saver with helping me feel a bit better about the situation. Freddie was frilled to find out that wearing the underwear had in fact made me feel a lot more confident within myself- proceeding for him to then bring home the same set in multiple different colours- black, white, emerald green, light and dark blue, yellow and another red one. I have the emerald green one on today. I have to admit that looking at my reflection in the mirror has started to become a slightly easier experience, I'm still not satisfied with what see and I'm still convinced, despite Freddie and Annie inciting it's not true, that that is part of the reason Jack wasn't interested in going anywhere near me.