Dear Dean,
Hey Dean it's me, Cas. I'm sorry for not writing. I see Sam has been though. He's sleeping in the chair next to me right now. God I feel terrible. He probably hasn't slept because of me. He needs to stop worrying about me... He's going to ruin his life.
But I enjoyed my time with you Dean. I wish I could have slept longer. I just needed a few more moments with you... I love you so much. It's so tempting to do it again. But I wont. I see he is already a mess.
Sam stretched and slowly opened his eyes. Cas gave him a weak smile.
"Cas!" Sam threw himself around Cas. He gripped Cas's knotty hair between his fingers.
"I'm so glad your okay." He helped Cas tightly.
"Sam I'm fine. I'm okay." He returned the loving gesture and both stayed there, holding each other for about 5 minutes then Same let go. His eyes were still wet.
"I'm going to get the nurse."
"Okay."
He was more worried than I thought he would be.... I feel so bad. The nurse is letting me go home. Finally. I'll write more when we get home. I love you!
Dear Dean,
I'm at home now. Sam is sitting here on the couch with me.
"Sam, don't you have school today?
I'd hate for him to miss school because of me.
"No, well, yeah. But I told them I couldn't make it."
"Sam-"
"I wasn't leaving you alone Cas.." There was a short pause. Cas tapped his pencil on his notebook.
"Well, how was your first day?"
"It was great. I enjoyed it. Sorry I was late... I stayed after to see if they could put me where I left off instead of having to start all over again."
"Ahhh, I see"
Why do I always have to mess something up for him. I feel horrible. Mentally and physically. I need some more sleep. Goodnight dear. I love you with all my heart.
Love, Castiel.
