Dear Dean,
It's very rainy today. It matches my mood. It's setting in that you're really gone. I guess this is still grief. All your stuff is exactly where it was, un touched. I just sit here in our bedroom writing, sleeping, and every once in a while eating. I don't really leave this room. I have no reason to leave. I watched a lot of tv today. I laughed or blew some air out of my nose every once in a while. It was pretty entertaining. I've actually been thinking about going to see Sam. I havn't talked to him since the day I yelled at him. I've been yelling at a lot of people lately. Anyway, I just realized it is 2 in the morning. I'm not even that tired. I hope you're enjoying heaven. It's a beautiful place. If I could go back and be with you I would... Giving up my angle powers to be with you was worth it though. I love you. Dean.
Love, Cas
