*THIS CHAPTER MAY BE TRIGGERING I AM SORRY*
Dear Dean,
Goodmorning love! It's another bright and shiny day. Did you create this? It so, it's beautiful, just like you. Sam and I were listening to the radio. But he turned it off because I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing came on and I started to cry. But I was crying because it was such a beautiful moment. The song quietly playing, looking out at the sunny sky. It was beautiful Dean. Anyways, I think today is going to be one of my decent days. Sammy says "Goodmorning" We're sitting on the back porch drinking coffee. Wish you were here.
Love, Cas
Dear Dean,
It's 1 am and I can't sleep. Sam is in the living room I checked on him. I didn't want to wake him up with my sobs. I miss you so damn much. Every night I just curl up in a ball and cry. What was it like to hurt yourself? Does it really make you feel better? Maybe I will try. I mean if it made you feel better when you were sad the it must work.
I sat the paper and pen away from me. I slowly, quietly, and carefully walked to the kitchen. I opened up some draws and found a knife. I slowly picked it up and took a deep breath, observing the shark rigid edge. Do I really want to do this? Without another thought I put it to my fore arm. The feeling of the cold blade against my skin sent chills throughout my body. I drug the knife against my arm tearing my skin revealing blood. I let out a breath and put the knife in a hidden place. I cleaned the blood off my arm and went back to my room like nothing happened.
Now I understand why you did it Dean. I do feel better. I still miss you though.
I got back up and grabbed one of Deans sweaters to wear. I put it on, hugging myself in it taking in the feel, the sent, the warmth. It was just a little big on me.
Goodnight Dean. I love you dearly.
Love, Castiel
*OH MY GOSH GUYS I AM SO SORRY! I swear I did not mean to make this happen it just sorta did. This will be the only time Cas does it though unless I decide at last moment to add it in. I hope you guys enjoyed it and thank you so much for the 182 reads. That is crazy!*
