I'm all alone in this world

Annoyed

Sean P.O.V

"I mean I'm staying over tonight" I replied. "Ohhh no you are not" she started. "I'm not leaving and my mom already said I could stay, there is no way I am letting you stay here by yourself and feel alone. I am staying" I firmed. Melina groaned. "Now come on we have homework" I urged her, practically pulling her to her house. She opened the door slowly. The walls around me were painted like autumn leaves, dark red and full of life. The furniture was mostly dark brown helping fit the autumn feeling. I sat down on her lounge couch and pulled out my backpack. Melina plopped down next to me and pulled out her binder, which was scattered and a mess. Yet she managed to find her papers right away. The only homework we had was a packet for math given the fact it was the only class we truly got through. We finished within the hour. "What now" I asked. She shrugged her shoulders as a response. "Wanna watch a movie" I suggested. "Sure" she replied. We ended up watching She's The Man and then because Melina hated that movie, decided to watch another movie. The second movie we watched was The Suicide Room. It was a foreign film that I didn't quiet understand but Melina seemed to love it. At the end of the movie she was a hot mess crying her eyes out. I had to admit the ending was horribly sad. I stood up and started to look around the house for the bathroom. I eventually found it upstairs. I opened the door, walked in and then closed the door. I took off my jacket carefully and then took off my shirt. "The one time it's long sleeved" I mumbled to myself. The top of my arm was seriously bruised and hurt like hell. I rummaged around the drawers looking for a wrap for my arm hoping Melina wouldn't notice if one was missing. I started at the mirror like cabinet only to find pills and hairspray. I closed the cabinet and moved down to the drawers below the sink. I didn't find a wrap but I did find a small razor. It seemed to be staring at me dead in the eye. I took it out of the drawer carefully. It was so clean, so sharp. It was square and about the size of my thumb. I bent it slightly. It seemed as if it was made of plastic even thought it was thin metal. I walked over to the toilet and grabbed some toilet paper and wrapped it in toilet paper and picked up my jacket placing it into the pocket. I continued to look around for a wrap for a while until I eventually found one. I took it and wrapped it very gently around the top of my arm. I put my shirt and jacket back on. Then I took a piss. Once I finished I washed my hands and rushed down the stairs. At the bottom a sheepish Melina was waiting. "What took you so long" she mumbled leaning into her arm. "Sorry" I said plopping down onto the couch. "Phone me" she said. It took me a short while to realize she wanted her phone which was waiting on the table for her. I picked it up and placed it in her hand. "Thanks" she grinned pulling up YouTube. I moved closer to her so I could see what she was typing. "Who's Joel Faviere" I asked. She gave me a I-will-kill-you-if-you-say-that-again look before shaking her head and pulling up a playlist with music by him. "Only the best song artist ever" she stated. "I beg to differ" I grinned knowing I was asking for trouble. "Know whatI will kill you in your sleep if you say that again" she bluffed. "Is that a threat" I joked. "Yeah it is". I smiled at that. "Okay let's hear what he sounds like" I said clapping my hands together. She pressed play and a song called Stupid and Anxious started to play by him. I had to admit he was pretty good, dark but talented. "Okay love him but why are you listening to him right now" I asked. "Helps me sleep" she smiled slightly. I nodded my head understanding. She looked really tired and kinda like a cat in a way. Melina stretched before bringing her knees up to her chest and started to fall asleep. Her hands were brought up to her face and it seemed like all of her focus was on the song she was listening to. I watched her breaths a while before getting up and pulling a blanket over her. After about half an hour she seemed to have fallen asleep so I got up quietly and found myself a blanket. I laid down on the couch on the opposite side of her so I could stretch out my legs and just laid there. Looking up at the ceiling. I let my thoughts take control of me. I let them enter the room and walk circles around me telling me that I was a piece of shit and a horrible person and then I stopped them. I caught myself before it got too far, I took a deep breath, told myself everything I had done right today and got up once more. I opened up the door leading outside and took in the breeze and the stars. So many atoms made up the universe and to think how small one person is compared to them all. Dominik was right it was wrong to take away the most precious thing we have to give, life. Life was an important gift but I wouldn't say it was the most precious. Life has so many twists and turns and bumps and it isn't quiet fair. People say God put us on earth for a reason. I think that is true in a form. In my opinion we were put on earth so we could live our lives or end them because we are not all treated equal as they say. Man is not created equal because all men are not happy people with wonderful lives or healthy. We do not get to choice how we are and I do not consider that equal. Some men do believe in God and some to not. I do not, but I do believe that there is a place that we all go, I'm not sure where it is but I do believe that something joins us together when we are gone.