I'm all alone in this world

Happiness all around

Melina P.O.V.

The first day back to school was absolutely dreadful I hated it. The bullying continued and seemed to attack me as if I paused a video game at the boss level then coming back later and forgetting how scary and intense it was. The only highlight of the day was lunch. You couldn't really even call it a highlight. I got to be alone and eat lunch in the girls restroom. I faked a smile with the guys however not wanting them to see the pain. I hated to show my hurt in person. I could do it online and speak my feelings there. Safe from judgement. I didn't post any "attention whorish" things like photos of my cuts or stuff like that. That's what I like to call fake depression. When people flaunt their scars on their body and show them off. I didn't even want Wren to find out but he did when I was wearing a short sleeved shirt home alone one day and he barged in unknowingly and saw. Fucking dick. It's not what I wanted. I was perfectly fine with my isolation skills. But no my only friend had to find out. Well he wasn't my only friend back then at least. Anyways I was insanely glad when the day was over. I was actually excited to hang out with everyone. Jack got on his motorcycle and I really wanted to get on with him but I was afraid to ask. Stupid anxiety. When we arrived to Seans' house I was a nervous reck. I absolutely dreading meeting parents. "Hey Sean what are Uh your parents like" I stuttered. "Well my mom is pretty cool she's sweet but over well over motherly. My dads in the military so he's strict and well not the friendliest of people but he loves my brother" he replied with ease. "O-okay" I managed to get out. I looked outside of the back window to make sure Jack was still following us even though I could hear a slight roar of his motorcycle it was still good to double check. He was still there. Sean eventually pulled up to his house and we all piled out. My hand automatically linked with my elbow, and i hunched up my shoulders making sure to only keep eye contact with the ground. I felt someone rest a hand on my shoulder and flinched. "Hey it's going to be alright. Everything is going to be fine" Jack whispered reassuringly. "Yea fine" I mumbled. His hand dropped off my shoulders and into his pocket, along with the other one. Each footstep to his door felt heavier than the last. Wren knocked on the door and a woman with brown hair opened the door, I assumed this was Seans mom. I observed her face. She had bags under her eyes and her face was pretty small, she wore a smile and her green eyes shined brightly. "Sean your father needs to talk to you" Seans mom said pinching her forehead before realizing we were there as well. "Oh pardon my manners. I'll show you all inside. Sean your dad is upstairs waiting for you". I walked inside feeling slightly at ease. I exhaled loudly and as if on cue, a dog bolted around the corner tackling me. I laughed as the brown pouch licked my face. Eventually I managed to get it off of me but decided to stay on the ground petting its head. "How'd Wilbur get out" Seans mom murmured to herself. My ears perked up, so did jacks. "Did you say Wilbur" he asked curious. "As in Wilbur Robinson from meet the Robinson's" I chimed in. "The one and only" a small child grinned. The little boy was about 8 years old and had piercing blue eyes. He was incredibly cute and had dirty blonde hair and only about half of his teeth in his mouth. "So cute" I mumbled. I always had a thing for little kids and wouldn't want to grow old without having one. I got along with them well and I liked telling them stories. I guess the reason I loved them so much is because you don't have to look at them and wonder what their worrying about, are they okay, will they be alive the next day, etcetera. They were happier and didn't care what others thought of them. I wish I could go back to those days with no worries. Honestly I know my life isn't bad and that's what I hate about people who claim they have depression. People will blame it on material things like no having a boyfriend like being in a relationship doesn't magically cure depression. As a matter of fact dating Justin made my depression and anxiety worse. And by going oh yay relationship that's gonna cure me is so sickening to me. Depression is a mental illness people and I hate people who don't realize that. Anyways speaking of people who believe in magical miracles, child who is not named. "So young child what's your name" I asked ruffling his hair. "James, but I go by Jim" he smiled brightly. "Jimbo" I laughed mostly to myself. "Hey that's from treasure planet" he gasped jumping up and down. "You've seen that movie" I smiled like a mad man. "Only my favorite movie" he said sarcastically. "Same" I laughed. He came up to me and gave me a hug around the leg since he was too short to reach my waist. I squealed internally at the cuteness but cringed externally at the pain shooting down my leg. "Hey little dude we need to hang out one day and watch shows together,okay" I hinted. "Yay that sounds like fun" he squealed fist-bumping me. I looked up forgetting the guys were still there and smiled awkwardly mumbling an 'oops' to myself. "So video games or not" Jack asked. "Yea sure" I grinned as me and jack started heading downstairs. "I'll meet you down there, I have to piss" Wren shrugged. We set up Seans Xbox and waited for call of duty to load. "So I've been Uh meaning to ask you something for a while now" Jack said running his hands through his hair. I raised an eyebrow to him. "Well Uhm you know that Uh kiss we shared. What did you think of it" he asked tapping his fingers anxiously on the controller. "Why" I asked. "Just curious I guess I mean we both know you want this" he said gesturing to himself "so I want to know if you want my kiss". I slapped him across the chest playfully and laughed. "I don't know really I mean I'm still getting used to the whole you being my friend thing honestly and oh wait fuck you're doing this to embarrasses me because you kissed me as a joke aren't you" I cringed. "Sure a joke lets go with that" he said and I couldn't determine if it was sarcastic or not. "Bitch" I laughed tackling him. I pinned him down and let out a triumphant 'ha' before he flipped me so he was on top. I struggled to escape which isn't easy when you have a frikin body builder pinning you down. Okay so maybe he wasn't a body builder but he defiantly wasn't scrawny either. I couldn't help but stare into his eyes as he leaned forward. I thought about how much he had changed. This wasn't the old Jack I had known. The one who had abandoned me when we were first friends. This wasn't the Jack that had hurt me. The sad thing was this was the same Jack I was gaining feeling for again. No I can't be getting feeling for him. He'll hurt me again. 'What made you change your old ways" I sighed. "Mel" he trailed off. "I'm sorry for what happened before. I didn't know it would all go as far as it did. I'm really sorry I was young and stupid. I was too busy caught up in being popular than I was caught up in my friends". I stared at him not knowing what to say. "Friends" I mumbled. Why do I not like that word. It was never a problem with him before now. Friends.