jennie x bts one-shots

TAENNIE, in pain.

warning: swearing and mentions of rape and self harm. please do not read if you don't think you can take it.

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Taehyung could only helplessly stare at the small figure in front of her as she crouched down and finally lifted her eyes. Her eyes had lost the spark they previously had and her cheeks were hollow. The coat which used to fit her well looked huge on her and he could see how bony and thin she had become.

And he could do nothing about it.

She watched silently as Jennie took a deep shaky breath and gave a watery smile filled with agony at her. "T-Tae-ah... I miss you so much," She took another breath, pushing back tears.

"I would do anything to have you back... but I can't," she smiled ruefully. "I-I hate myself, I hate myself so much. I hate how- how- ...I hadnt realised earlier... t-that I loved you."

Taehyung reached forward to touch Jennie's face, giving her a smile filled with pain.

A tear slipped down Jennie's cheeks and she gave a hollow chuckle, saying softly "I miss you so fucking much, Tae."

She looked down into her palms and his heart wrenched with pain. He tried to wipe Jennie's tears away, but it was useless. He wanted to kiss her tears away, bring her joy and positivity and take away all her burdens.

But he couldn't.

Jennie's hair was falling down, covering her eyes. In the dark night, Taehyung could just make out the slight shake of her shoulders and the tears falling down her cheeks continuously.

"My boyfriend..h-he," she hiccuped and managed to look up again, eyes glistening, "still abuses me, Taehyung, a-and I don't know what to do."

He could only watch the love of her life sit and cry in front of her helplessly, feeling tears of his own coming.

"I want to leave him b-but I can't. He... He said he had connections and-" she broke down completely, her sobs the only sound going through the night. Tears trailed down Taehyung's cheeks as Jennie crouched forward completely, her hands on the grass and her face covered by her hands.

Her whole body was shaking and he tried to cradle her but his efforts were useless. She let her cry, her wails shattering his heart.

Her broken and contrite cries for help broke Taehyung apart.

Because she couldn't do anything.

Sobs rocked through Jennie's body as she recounted how her boyfriend tried to force himself on her.

How when she resisted, how he abused her to the point she blacked out. How he hit her stomach, kicked her harshly, despite all her protests and tears.

"He t-touched me," she began again, fresh tears coming "when I was u-unconscious and- and-" Jennie couldn't continue anymore, crouching lower, and Taehyung didn't know if she was glad. She didn't know how much more she could take, seeing the girl he loves in such a situation.

For a good half an hour, the only sound in the dark night that could be heard was Jennie's pain-filled crying. Taehyung couldn't do anything and just watched as she finally managed to gather herself, tears of his own falling down. Jennie finally got up wiped her tears, but more just trailed down silently.

"God, Tae... I miss you so much," she managed to say brokenly, taking a rose from her bag. As her hand reached out, the coat sleeves slid down, exposing her arm all the way to her elbow.

Sharp red lines covered her arm, like as if her arm were a canvas.

Taehyung choked on his tears, crying for Jennie, who stared at it before looking back at her.

"I forgot to tell you," another broken smile "I started c-cutting...again," she whispered. "I feel so fucking stupid. You're the one who saved me last time, and yet I didn't realise you're t-the one."

"And now look at me?" Jennie blinked hard, she didnt want to cry again, and gave a chuckle, "I'm back to square one."

She pulled her sleeves back down, wincing as the cloth touched the sensitive skin. She looked back at Taehyung, void of emotion.

She exhaled deeply. "I would kill to be with you," She gave a soft laugh, a hollow one, her eyes empty and her heart heavy. "I really would."

He knew Jennie was referring to herself.

She placed the rose on Taehyung's gravestone and stood up.

He wanted to tell her not to go, not to go back to to that asshole of a boyfriend she had, to stay with her, but hs couldn't.

Everytime he opened her mouth, no sound came out. Everytime he tried to touch Jennie, she wouldn't be able to feel it. All he could do was listen and cry for her lover everytime she came, in the middle of the night, having snuck out.

Taehyung would listen to Jennie cry, and see her new bruises and bloodshot eyes. Her mandu cheeks were gone and her hair was thinning. Her skin was pale and has lost its healthy look.  The weariness in her eyebags made her look like she was in her thirties, not twenties. He could see Jennie get more and more broken with every visit, her cries echoing throughout the cemetery at night.

And he could only watch, and maybe cry with her.

And so that's what he did again. She watched as Jennie got up, wincing as her legs straightened, and wiped the last of her tears.

"I will try to visit you again next week, Tae. But maybe I would join you by then." Another hollow laugh escaped from her mouth which crushed Taehyung, as he watched Jennie struggle to walk away, limping.

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this used to be a jenlisa one shot :0