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Song tip: starshopping- Lil Peep
"right now i know I'm not really worth it."
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Oikawa huffed as he willed Iwaizumi to pick up the phone. The ringing went on and finally the voicemail could be heard.
Oikawa let out a string of curses as he chucked his phone before noticing a presence beside him.
"Oh. You're here."
Iwaizumi merely glanced over at Oikawa.
"I was calling you. It's rude to ignore me Iwa-chan."
"Shut up."
Oikawa smiled fondly at Iwaizumi's usual response. Despite the shorter boy meaning the harsh words and Oikawa knowing that, he still loved how they came out of Iwaizumi's mouth.
"How long?"
Oikawa perked up at the sound of Iwaizumi's voice again. His house grew cold at the question and he knew he'd have to tell the truth.
"Two weeks."
Iwaizumi let out a dissapointed 'tut', almost as if he was frustrated at how well Oikawa was doing. He was always there to hold the other down.
"What's your excuse this time?"
"I-"
Oikawa was stuck on what to say, trying to find an answer that would please Iwaizumi. He knew that no answer would ever please that man so he went with the easiest one.
"I was just busy, didn't have time."
"That's bullshit."
It really was. Oikawa knew it and he knew now that he had put it off, it would be worse this time.
Oikawa moved swiftly from his warm living room to his kitchen, shivering slightly as he grabbed a whiskey glass and filled it half full with his favourite bourbon. He plopped a couple ice cubes in and generously sipped at the drink, occasionally glancing at Iwaizumi.
"Want one?"
"No Oikawa. That's not even possible."
"Right. Sometimes i forget."
Oikawa chuckled at himself sadly before taking a gulp of the drink, it stung his throat as he slowly eased the drink down, feeling it go down his throat smoothly as he gagged slightly. He wasn't the best with alcohol.
"Anyway...how come you didn't pick up your phone?"
"I was right next to you, dumbass."
Oikawa huffed before finishing the rest of his drink as the cold gripping feeling in his chest returned and time got shorter as he realised what Iwaizumi wanted.
"Iwa-"
"Don't fight this Oikawa. You're real pathetic, you know that?"
"I know, but-"
"No buts Tōru."
Oikawa shivered at the use of his first name as he placed his glass in the sink and leant against it heavily. Oikawa felt all the oxygen in his body escaping him as he ran a shaky hand through his hair and exhaled slowly.
"So worthless."
"I know, Hajime."
Oikawa closed his eyes, he felt Iwaizumi standing behind him.
"Just..."
"I know what you're trying to say Oikawa. Go on. Say it. I dare you."
Oikawa pressed his eyes closed as he clutched the side of his sink untill he found his Knuckles going white and his face going numb. He knew he couldn't do it.
"Just like i expected. So fucking useless. Can't even tell me to fuck off like you want to so much. I think I'll stay."
Oikawa felt his grip lighten.
"Unless... that's what you really want, right?"
Oikawa stayed quiet, his heart pounding behind his ribcage and legs shaking Slightly.
"Dirty whore."
Oikawa wanted to cry, his lip trembled and he still couldn't face turning to look at Iwaizumi as he felt his hair fall over his face and he exhaled slowly once again.
Oikawa mustered up the courage to turn finally as he slowly opened his eyes and inhaled, turning to face Iwaizumi only to find that the man wasn't there anymore. Great.
Oikawa found himself caving as he crumpled to the ground, his knees instantly creating a cushion for his chin as he wrapped his lanky arms around himself as much as he could. With Iwaizumi gone, Oikawa finally let himself cry and breakdown as his shoulders shook and he gripped tighter onto his legs, digging into the flesh.
He'd give anything for Iwaizumi to stay as he used to be. He'd give anything to re unite with the Iwaizumi he knew and fell in love with all those years ago.
He'd give anything for Iwaizumi.
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It's not what u think 👀
This fic will probs be confusing, it'll be fun to see people put the pieces together lol :)
