It's you

Glass

I wake up the middle of the night after a nightmare.I look to my side and see JJ's messy hair,happily asleep.I crawl out of my bed.I Stand in my doorway taking one more glance at him then walking out.

I walk out to the beach.I sit down in the sand looking out into the water.I close my eyes and listen to the waves crash down,feeling peaceful.tears prick the side of my eyes as I start to over think everything.

"Thought you would be down here" I voice cuts me out of my thoughts I look over and see JJ and he sits by me. "Did I wake you?"

"Nah"

I look back to the dark and mysterious water.After a while I look over at him to see he was already looking at me. "What?" I ask him softly.instead of answer he flicks his eyes down to my lips them back to my eyes.the moon light dances on his most beautiful features.my glossy lips twinkle in the moonlight as he dips his head closer to me. "I wanna kiss you" he whispers.I look at his lips, "do it" he doesn't hesitate and kisses me slowly.

Pulling away after a few seconds.I kiss him again holding the back of his neck playing with his hair with my other hand.his arm wraps around my waist pulling me closer.

I pokes the side of my stomach making me laugh in the kiss.he starts tickling me and I lay back on the sand laughing. "Stop JJ!" I squeal at him and he laughs.

He finally stops and stares at me.I lean up and peck his lips one more time.making him blush.

He stands up and grabs my hand pulling me up.

We step back into my room and I lay down on my bed JJ gets on top of me and I giggle.he lays down wrapping an arm around my waist flipping us so I'm on top of him and I lay down on his chest.I fall back to sleep with a smile on my face.

***
I wake up and JJ's gone.ugh I'm so dumb.why did I think that JJ liked me.he was prolly just in the moment and thought he wanted to kiss me.

I lazily get up,I go downstairs and see my dad still isn't home.He's most likely found out the news by now.he probably is sky high trying to avoid reality.

I grab the car keys and head out to Barry's in hopes that he's there.

I pull up to the house and cringe getting a whiff of drugs.I walk up to the house and see Barry sitting in his usual spot on the porch. "Hey pretty lady" he says and I roll my eyes. "Where's my dad?" I ask. "He's inside" I hear a voice from beside me.I look over my shoulder,my brown hair flowing down my back and see no other than Rafe Cameron.

"Rafe?" I ask unexpectedly "hey...lace" he says "what are you-" I'm cut off by a voice. "Lacey!" I flinch and turn around and see my dad in the doorway.

His eyes where red and barely open,he was sky high.

"D-dad let's go home" I say softly. "No!i'm not going back there!" He shouts.I get embarrassed that anyone has to see this.he try's to go back in the house but I block him. "Dad you have to come home,you can't stay here" I say but he grips onto my arm and tosses me out of the way.

Rafe catches me before I can fall off the deck.I mumble a quick thanks and run into the house where my dad is. "Dad,I'm sick of your shit.fix your act or I'm turning you into the police." I say trying not to get too loud so the others don't hear.

He then quickly turns around. "You don't get to say shit like that to me!" he shouts shoving me.I fall back into a wall then catch my balance.I get back up and pull on the back of his shirt.he quickly turns around and pushes me harder than before making me knock down a picture frame.grass shards rain down cutting my arms.

I get to my feet and look him dead in the eye. "I hate you" I say through a clenched jaw.I storm out of the house. "You know what!I hate you too!you worthless piece of shit!" He yells out to me and I jump off the porch.

"Lacey,lace!you alright" I hear Rafe from behind me.I ignore his calls and get in the car.

I slam the door closed and drive off banging my hands on the steering wheel. "Fuck!" I scream.

I get in my house and throw the keys on the counter.I look to my side and see a picture frame of my parents and I.I grit my teeth together and grab it chinking it's at the wall making glass shatter everywhere.

I find another picture and rip it up throwing it in the sink and lighting it on fire.I watch as the fire slowly disintegrates the picture.I bang my fist on the counter I draw opens from the shaking of the counter and I spot a knife in it.I grab it out and hold it tightly in my hands hovering it over my other arm.

What am I doing?i'm a train wreck.stop!JJ wouldn't want this.

I quickly put the knife back into the draw before doing anything and take a step away from the draw.what have I become?I run upstairs and look in the mirror.I look down at my arms and see blood trickle down them from the glass cutting them.

I rinse off my arms and clean them.

I then go back downstairs and look at the mess I've made.I don't bother to clean it up,I don't have the energy.I decide I need to see one of my friends.I run to John b's house.I walk in and see him eating. "Hey John b...I wanted to talk" I say he turns around and sees me.

"Yeah sure" he says patting the spot beside him for me to sit.I'm about to start when I hear a girl giggle.I look at him confused and his face falls. "John b?" I ask.

He purses his lips. "You have a girl over" I say chuckling and he then fake laughs. "I want to meet her" I say walking back to his room. "You don't wanna do that" he says grabbing my arm.I wince and he quickly lets go looking at my arm and seeing the little marks of glass.

"Why not?" I say with a smile not noticing that he saw my arms. "Just don't-"

"John b don't be ridiculous" I say walking to the door and turning the knob.I open the door and instead of seeing just a girl I see JJ with her,he was on top of her tickling her,like he used to do to me.my heart sinks and my smile falls.JJ looks up at me and gets off of her. "Lacey?" He asks but I just look at John b then rush out of the house.

My breathing gets heavy and my lip quivers.i feel like I'm going to throw up. "Lacey wait!" I hear JJ call from behind me but I don't stop.I tear falls from my face and I quickly wipe it.

"Wait"

I feel him grab my arm and turn me around I snatch my arm out of his grip and cradle it in pain. "Woah,what's that" he says referring to my arm. "Don't act like you care now" I say trying to turn around but he stops me.

"Look it wasn't what it looked like-"

"It's fine" I cut him off. "W-what,how is that fine?" He asks. "We aren't dating,so you can do whatever you want" I say trying to not sound hurt. "W-what?" He asks me with a frown. "But I thought-"

"Save it,she's waiting" I say now realizing that the girl was standing on the porch.he groans, "you can't leave" he says with teary eyes,I almost break. "You clearly didn't mind leaving earlier" I say turning back around remembering he had left this morning probably to see her.