What the fuck is wrong with me?

thirty one

I wanna dedicate this chapter to @boggox because they've been really supportive since I first started this book and my Wattpad won't let me reply to any fucking comments lol anyways :) ——okay so it's been awhile (my apologies) but if anyone is still interested, I am back! :D hope you enjoy, I have some good ideas for the next couple of chapters 😎

Harry's Pov

"I love you too."
I let out a breath I didn't even realise I was holding "oh thank god," I giggled "would've been embarrassing if you just rejected me now."
Ethan grabbed my shoulder with one hand and Simon's with his other "I'll tell you what, it's about fucking time!" Now everyone was giggling. It was nice, I thought everyone would judge me and hate this but everyone is happy, including me.

3 months later

Simon's Pov

I wake up to a sleeping Harry lying on my chest and snoring, his armed wrapped up around me. The last three months like this have been amazing, we're happy together. I haven't fixed Harry but he's told me that I'm helping, he's been helping himself though too. Goes to therapy 3 times a week, says it helps, I can see that it does. We now have loads of Sidemen videos filmed and ready to go every week and the fans are none the wiser about anything that's happened. It always takes a few minutes for my eyes to adjust once regaining consciousness but now that I have, I can see Harry clearer. I loved everything about him even first thing in the morning from his messy bed hair to his snoring though that's probably what woke me up to be honest. "Harry?" I whispered but got no reply, figures. I slowly shifted his arm off of me so that I could get up without waking him, guess he could use a bit more rest after last night hehe.

Hmm how should I make my way down to the kitchen? Lift or stairs...lift I'm lazy. I stepped in and pressed the button for the ground floor which only took about 5 seconds to reach. This lift is pointless to be honest but I remember JJ insisted on getting it built "it'll look cool!"
Ethan was in the kitchen drinking what I can only assume was a protein smoothie? Looked gross. "Morning Si, no Harry?"
"Nah he's still sleeping but I'm hungry so I thought I'd come down for breakfast."
"I'm heading out now but there's some more of this," he pointed to his dreadful looking sludge of a drink he was holding in his hand "in the fridge, I'm heading to the gym!"
"Thank you," I smiled, "see you later!"

I opened the fridge and looked for something I could cook, I appreciate the thought Ethan but there is no way I'm drinking that disgusting shit, "nothing to fucking eat!" I slammed the fridge door shut. JJ walked in "woah chill, what'd that fridge do to you?"
I shook my head and smiled "shut up!"
"You wanna get Mac Donald's breakfast?"
"Of course I do!"

JJ's Pov

After we ordered what we wanted we both sat opposite each other at our kitchen island, Simon swinging in his chair all giddy. "What's with the overly happy morning person thing you've got going on right now?"
He smiled "I'm just feeling..very..happy today!"
"Something to do with all the noise you were making last night?"
Simon spat out his water and punched me in the arm "JIDE!"
"HAHAHA I'm just playing, no but seriously is it Harry that's got you all cheerful?"
He nodded "Who would have thought all this would be happening 3 months ago? Harry is getting better, slowly but surely and he's my.." he paused.
"Boyfriend?" I questioned.
"My boyfriend," he looked confused or something "Crap."
"Si what is it?"
"I don't know I guess we've never made it official official you know and my parents, why am I only thinking about how they'd react to me dating a guy now?"
"They wouldn't like it?"
"Oh god no."
Seeing Simons mood drop just thinking about telling his parents he's gay upsets me I just want the best for him, and Harry, they deserve so much better than ignorant homophobia.
"Hey come on don't get all sad on me Mr 'morning person' you've got an amazing boyyyfriend upstiars in bed and our breakfast will be here in less than 10 that's so much to be cheerful about."
He smiled again "You're right, fuck my parents I'm not letting them ruin my day."
"Fuck your parents."

Harry's Pov

I woke up to my phone ringing and turned to see Simon to ask him to answer for me only for Simon not to be there. The ringing stopped so I put my head back on my pillow. Then a second call came through, must be important. "Okay okay!" I reached out my right hand for my phone and rubbed my eyes with my left to see my screen clearly. "Huh?"

Unknown caller...

I hope no ones put my phone number online again, I picked up annoyed, "Who is this?"
I heard a few heavy breaths and then "you know who it is Harry." I dropped my phone in shock, at the voice on the other end of the line, then quickly picked it up and fumbled with it in my hands to end the call, already I was shaking uncontrollably and my voice was quivering as I shouted "SIMON!" and ran downstairs to find him, still shouting for him. My vision was slightly blurred from tears brimming in my eyes but I could make out Simon and JJ at the kitchen counter and lowered my voice "Simon?" And dropped to the floor.