What the fuck is wrong with me?

Twenty five

Ethan, JJ, Josh, and Vik waited nervously back at the house.

Ethans Pov

"It's been like an hour!" I groaned as I paced back and forth in the hallway.
JJ didn't miss a beat, "Would you fucking stop that, it's stressing me out."
Vik nodded "yeah, please."
"Sorry I'm just..worried." I sat myself down on the floor next to JJ in need of reassurance. Thankfully, he placed his hand on my shoulder "We all are."
Usually Josh would have some words of wisdom at a time like this. But right now he had nothing to say.

After what felt like forever the front door swung open and we jumped up to help Tobi and Simon bring Harry inside. To put it bluntly, he looked fucked. Harry's entire face was bright red, he was sweating so much his hair was wet and his eyes were dilated. He was on something and it wasn't just weed. We took him into the front room and laid him on the sofa, Vik went to get him a glass of water to "sober him up" or something. Don't think he understands how this works.

JJ said what we were all thinking. "What the fuck is wrong with him?

Simon began to speak, his voice trembling slightly— something Simon does when he's nervous. "It's..he took well he's high on...meth..it seems."

Meth? "I'm sorry—what?" My jaw dropped.

"Oh my god!"
"Does he need to go to hospital?"
"Is he gonna be okay?"
"Where the fuck did he get it from?"
"Meth..seriously what the fuck."

Harry's Pov

They were all talking I just couldn't tell who was who and what they were trying to say. It was confusing me which only ended up pissing me off. I wanted them to shut up, why don't I tell them to shut up? Yeah I'm gonna tell them to "Shut up!"

Simon sat down beside me and handed me a glass or water which I pushed away. I hated that everyone was making a fuss and I was still mad at Simon for earlier. "I'm not letting this go Simon, get away from me," I pushed him away like I did the glass of water and raised my voice "get away from me now!"
Being mad at Simon made me feel guilty because I know I am upsetting him, I can't help it though especially being in this state. I'm right to be annoyed. I know I am. Why am I doubting myself? Simon broke my trust and told my family something personal. That wasn't fair. I stood up, in the mood for a fight.
"Do you know what Simon?"

He was about to leave but now he turned to face me, eyes watering. The rest of the boys stared at the free entertainment unraveling in front of them.

"I wish I never kissed you."
Deep down I didn't mean that
but in the moment, I did. I carried on.
"It was the biggest mistake of my life."

JJ grabbed me and pulled me back onto the sofa, "That's enough Harry." At first Simon just stood there looking at me not really knowing what to do and I assume not wanting to admit to himself that yes, that did just happen in front of everyone. After a long 10 seconds he spun around and rushed upstairs, all but JJ and I following.

JJ's Pov

"That wasn't nice of you Harry. I know you're depressed and maybe you're just lashing out because you're buzzed but it's not fair to act like that."

His eyes rolled back, clearly he's going to be annoyed and unbothered by whatever I have to say. I'll just keep my mouth shut to avoid a problem.

In the silence, I began to think back to the altercation. Harry and Simon kissed?