What the fuck is wrong with me?

Four

Harry's Pov

I didn't want to leave but I didn't fancy sleeping on their sofa either so I hugged the boys goodbye, thanked them for the good day and began to walk home. They did offer to drive me but I told them I preferred walking.
It had just gone 10pm by the time I reached the house, I prayed that everyone had gone upstairs to bed early. All I had to do was enter the house discreetly and then quietly head up
stairs and—fuck all the downstairs lights are on, well there goes that plan. The sound of the door opening opening caused the guys to look my way "Hey, I'm going upstairs" I said calmly with a fake smile planted on my face. They all seemed to buy it and nodded back in acknowledgement of my announcement, before going back to what they were doing before, all except Simon..and JJ?

Simon's Pov

After Harry was out of sight I shot JJ a look, signalling him it was time for us to speak with Harry. He understood what I meant and told the boys he was knackered and going to bed,
"Yeah I'm gonna head up too, night guys!" I quickly followed JJ upstairs, stopping at Harry's bedroom door.
"Sooo?" I whispered "Who's going in there?"
"You should after last night, I'll wait out here for you."
"You're right, okay now or never."
All of a sudden my palms became sweaty and my body shook with nerves as I knocked on the door. There were two things that could happen: one, he shuts me out and lies or two, he tell me what the deal is. I was expecting the worst.
"Harry? You in there?"
"Simon!" He sounded startled "Give me a minute!" I then proceeded to hear him rushing around his room.
"What the fuck?" I whispered quietly so only JJ could hear, he was now comfortably positioned on the floor next to me.
After a minute or two of waiting Harry finally opened the door "yes?" I noticed that he'd already gotten changed out of the clothes he was wearing when he arrived home, and now had on a dark purple hoodie paired with some basic black joggers.

I took a few steps closer to him and spat out what I was trying to say "Can I talk to you please, if you don't mind?"
"Look is this about last night because if it is don't worry, it won't happen again I was just having a rough day."
"Rough how?" I didn't believe he was just having some type of 'off day.'
"I don't even know my head was just funny, playing up abit." He smiled but this did not feel like a time for smiling.
"Cut the act Harry I know you better than that, I see through that fake ass smile." He seemed taken aback by my comment and didn't reply.
"Harry I just care about you." I placed my hand on his shoulder reassuringly "You can talk to me it won't go any further."

Harry's Pov

"You can talk to me it won't go any further." I didn't know what to do, I'd guessed he'd ask if I was okay but I didn't know he'd keep going after I gave him an excuse. I shook his arm off of me and took a few steps back from him "Were filming tomorrow, we should both get some rest." He didn't seem satisfied with my answer "Early start yeah?" I continued while smiling but still he wouldn't budge. I didn't know where to go from here or what to do so I panicked and I kissed him. It was only a short kiss because I quickly realised what the fuck I was doing and jumped away. Simon seemed startled by my random act of stupidity and so was I.
"Harry?" He looked at me with a confused look on his face "What was that for?"
If I didn't feel trapped before I sure as hell do now, I know he's gonna hate me oh god why did I just do that. "Fuck off Simon!" Wow I really am making this better for myself aren't I? He nodded and left, making sure to shut the door behind him. "Fuck" I muttered under my breath "Fuck" tears filled my eyes "FUCK" and then escaped. My knees sunk to the floor and I begun to weep, it was more than crying for all I felt in this moment was pure pain and I couldn't contain it. I knew I'd definitely fucked everything up.

Simon's Pov

I left Harry's room because he told me to fuck off but I know I should've stayed. He's hurting, any sane person could see that. But then he kissed me and it threw me off track, why did he kiss me? Was it just to distract me? Does he mean it? God I'm so confused.
"Simon how'd it go?"
"He didn't budge Jide, told me he was fine basically."
"Shit that's not what we wanted, go back in there!"
"We can try again tomorrow!"
"Wowww, night then."
JJ looked disappointed in me, I understand though I mean from his point of view it just looks like I'm not trying hard enough to help Harry but, in reality he doesn't actually know. Honestly I wanted nothing more than to go back in there and demand him to tell me what's up. But I couldn't make myself, after he kissed me I feel all confused.

Do I like Harry?

(Authors note: Hey just wanted to say thanks to anyone who's reading this! Comment any ideas you have, things you want me to include and I'll respond to them all :)) thank you again!!)