What the fuck is wrong with me?

Three

Harry's Pov

My headphones had the power to block out the rest of the real world, when I listened to music it almost felt like I could just sink into the sound and forget. Momentarily though obviously. Often I tend to get too caught up in the music and I forget I am in-fact in the real world and right now in public. "Wroe2shaw!! Please I get a picture?" A young girl squealed with excitement while jumping up and down in front of me, she couldn't have been older than twelve or thirteen. "Of course!" I smiled.
I'm glad she was happy but deep down I've honestly started to hate the attention. Being a member of the sidemen meant I was recognised almost everywhere, while completely hating seeing and taking pictures of me. Reluctantly I switched off my music and unplugged my earphones as I approached Cal and Cals flat, eager to get inside. "Cal?" I had to shout up to the open window on the their floor since the buzzer for their apartment seemed to be broken. Good thing they were only on floor two.
"Hang on Haz I'm coming!" He shouted back. Unless I'm being forced into filming a sidemen video I don't actually get out the house much. My phone buzzed in my pocket signalling a text.

Simon
Where you @?
Read: 8:46am

Simon can't be ignored forever I'll have to face him at some point but I wanted to put it off for as long as possible. Cal made loud thumping noises as he stomped down the stairs like he was in a race, I found this quite funny and was laughing about it as he approached the door. I waved through the glass as he fiddled with the key in the lock and soon enough the front door swung open to reveal the man himself, smiling right at me.
"Harry! It's been awhile." he held his arms out for a hug which I happily accepted. I genuinely feel quite guilty about the amount I see Cal and Cal we used to talk more. "I know I'm sorry I've just been busy you know?" Lying to his face, but I couldn't tell him I'm so sad I can't even get out of bed sometimes whachu is why they don't see much of me, could I? that's pathetic.
"I get you Bog it's no worries," he shot back in an understanding tone phew they definitely buy it "Are you hungry? I've just cooked some bacon if you fancy it."
I nodded quickly in response.

Meanwhile back at the house

JJ's Pov

Usually I sleep like a baby but last night was completely the opposite. Nonstop tossing and turning I couldn't quit worrying. Harry's always been the 'bubbly' 'funny' sideman but recently he hasn't been and I've noticed that, though I can tell he tries hard to hide it. All the other guys are completely fooled by him acting happy but he hasn't tricked me and he hasn't tricked Simon, we can see through him and we know somethings not right. These were the thoughts I had on my mind whilst walking from my room to the kitchen where I saw Simon already sat at the breakfast bar. We were both up pretty early considering it was a weekend, none of the other guys were even awake yet. Si was hunched over and staring deeply into a mug of steaming hot coffee, he hasn't noticed me yet. "Rough night?" I questioned hoping to start a conversation but he only nodded in response clearly indicating he was not in the mood for a chat right now.

We ate breakfast in silence, it was boring plain butter on toast since no one had been bothered to do a food shop this week. Others would probably find it awkward just sat in silence with your mate but we'd known eachother for years, this wasn't odd at all. After Si washed up the plates he finally spoke,
"Hey JJ?"
"Yeah mate?"
He looked down at his hands and fiddled with his fingers for a couple seconds before directing his eyes back up to me,
"Do you reckon Harry's alright? Like really alright?"
Now it was my turn to be silent. I really didn't have an answer to that question, he noted this and continued...
"I woke up and heard him crying last night so I went into his room to comfort him and fell asleep next to him, we didn't talk much I didn't want to ask what was wrong and upset him more. Should I have done that? I don't know this is all new to me I guess and I feel a little helpless to him." He begin tearing up a little towards the end and his voice had started to crack, he really cared about Harry. I walked towards him and sorta cradled him in my arms while whispering that it was going to be okay and tried to reassure him that he did the right thing. Then I suggested us asking Harry what was wrong now but he mumbled something about how he was already gone and I gasped shocked, "Gone? Where? He's never up this early."
"I think he was trying to avoid me, he knew I'd ask why he was upset now that I'd seen him in a proper state—his phones off too don't bother" he added when he saw me reach into my pocket for my phone. In answer to Simons first question no I didn't think Harry was okay especially after hearing about last night but I didn't want to say that out loud, it made it too real.

Callux's Pov

"Right I know I've just woken up yeah but I'm psyched you've come round me and Cal have proper missed you bud." Though I actually said it my words came from me and Cal, it was true we don't catch up with Harry enough anymore he's always extremely busy so it was super nice that he decided to come overall see us. Harry smiled slightly at my remark "Anything for footie and bacon brekky!"
"Speaking of fottie..hmm where'd you put the new ball Cal?"
"You know I did not put it away you did!"
"Uhhh no you seem to be mistaken!" I giggled.
We went back and forth like this for a minute, continuously until the chain was broken with Harry bursting out laughing "trouble in paradise?"
This comment caused him to receive two light punches on the arm, one from me and one form Cal "Shut up you!" I laughed back at him
Cal joined in to defend us, pretending to be hurt by his comment "Yeah our relationships just swell thank you very much!" He'd put on a posh accent for some reason which sent me and Harry into hysterics "SWELL" he screamed "SWELL."
Eventually Harry ended up finding the ball tucked behind my wardrobe I held my hands up and told them that I didn't know how on earth it got there and we all laughed at my stupidity. Soon enough we were at the park just kicking around a football and doing challenges like the old days. It was quite 'swell.'